BLAH BLAH BLAH & BATING.

BATING / JACKING  WEEKEND

Just hosted our first Bating Weekend and it was great fun.  With 12 guys here making a good group - we had an enjoyable weekend and I have leared a few things for future Bating Weekends and I shall certainly be looking forward to the next Bourne Baters weekend in August.
Thanks to the guys who attended and who helped make it such fun.  I had little clue as to what exactly to expect and on reflection, it was probably a bit obvious what to expect - and it was a delight.  
I have to admit that this was a fantasy of mine - and while I have attended tons of sex bars over the years and put on a show for others to watch ( if you have it - flaunt and show it off )  but it has been a long time since I did anything like that and as I am 99% celibate these days - more through long hard work days and little energy to meet strangers -  it was great fun to see so many men with the same thing on their minds and all in common with each other.  
Next time I think I will be a lot more relaxed about the whole thing and the energies will reflect this.   If anyone wishes to co host - so I can get a few hours off after dinner for instance and there is someone else encouraging and helping keep it going,  let me know.

I had some wonderful input concerning the Crash Course in Tantric Sex shared this weekend and although I appreciste it is part of another workshop,  it is too good not to share and allow others to try - and with an open heart I always offer my expertise as cheaply as I can.  Many valued what was shared and I had some wonderful comments  afterwards.

Thanks guys. Keep on tugging.

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Hi John I just wanted to say a huge thank you for letting me come to your first bournebaters, ( May 2013 )  I really enjoyed meeting you and the other guys, I had a great time and would have loved to have come on Saturday evening also but alas work commitments. I hope to see you soon as I'm local. Would definitely be up for the August weekend, will book time off work so know I will have more time. Thank you again for a great night. Steve. 
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John:  Thankyou for the Tantric Sex workshop during the BourneBaters weekend.  The breathing technique really was profound and exactly what I needed to hear and experience.  This was obviously what I came here to learn and while  BATING was the draw,  your woprkshop was very well received and worthy of attending for jst that.  I cannot tell you how profound it was, really good.  I shall certainly be returning soon.  J.
 

BELOW: e mail received recently; slightly edited.

Hello  John,
I am so looking forward to meeting you & have had a very vivid dream about you, i get dreams, visions & have had many incredible experiences of a spiritual nature.   Though the dream I had about you was more sexual, quite unlike anything I have had before!I feel that you will be quite unlike anyone I have met before & it will be amazing & enlightening to actually meet you & to learn from you. I feel you are the Master & all those that are ready will continue to be drawn to you.   It will be incredible to get into some deep spiritual/sexual conversations.  Dave.
 

I was pleased as punch with this e mail above and like many of us, I sent it to a friend to read and I was stunned by his lack of support in return and he screamed in HUGE CAPITAL LETTERS that he assumed it was fake and that I had written it myself,  and I was quite hurt.  I answered back that his comment and his view of me was always somewhat 'half empty' and was hardly supportive,  and it really saddened me.  A couple of hours later I took a much needed afternoon 'power nap' and went into a deep dream and - as in this case, I was being disrespected by a family member and again by a close friend,  and while I realise this is probably a reflection of my own need to be respected,  why is it that some gay men just cannot offer a compliment, praise when due,  support and above all,  appreciation for another, especially a friend, unless there is  some other underlying stuff going on for them.  It beggars belief why so many gay men are so lacking in their support of their own community and take take take while complaining all the time about those who give give give and yet they seem unable to see what destruction they are causing.

I remember a guy a few years ago who taught spiritual breathing workshops and wrote a spiritual article in one of the gay rags, and while his life was not ideal or perfect or anything above and beyond anyone elses, he was trying to offer some light in an otherwise dark and dangerous world, and he eventually gave it all up as he was sick of the negative input;-   sick of being ridiculed and sick of all those who assumed he thought himself   'something special and above everyone else' - when this was absolutely not the case.  He was just tryng to bring some light to the world in which he lived,-   and all those who chose to live in the darkness destroyed what he was trying to do and he eventually quit.  

I remember asking a client some decades ago what he did for a living, and his answer was - ' Oh I am just a waiter.'   and I - kinda - told him off.  I said that I had been a waiter and that it was bloody hard work.  You get obnoxious customers who treat you like scum. You are on your feet all day long in and out of the hot kitchen . Often Head Chefs are not exactly respectful and restaurant managers shout at you.  It is not a highly paid job and is really hard work,  and I told this guy he should have more pride in what he does and not say that he is 'just' a waiter - but that 'HE IS ' a waiter - and make a statement of fact with an authority that says he is proud of what he does and not ashamed or dismissive and to take pride in his waiting job.  
He absolutely heard what I said and it was remarkable,  as right in front of me he actually stood upright, with his shoulders back - held his head high and proudly said in a clear and distinctive voice - ' I AM A WAITER'-  and it was said with confidence and a bit of a challenge... a challenge not to make small with what he did and a challenge not to belittle his career choice  - and his manner said that if you do - he would challenge you - just as I had done - and put you in your place and that he was proud of what he did and that was that -  take it or fuck off kind of thing.  I laughed and congratulated him and we laughed together.  He said that he completely got what I had said - and instantly saw it all another way and thanked me for bringing him around in this way.

The remarkable thing was that he came to see me for a massage with a 'happy ending' - as this was during my sex worker days, and I cannot remember a single thing else about him other than this first interaction when he first arrived.  He was only young - around late 20's,  and I hope he took that lesson,  that moment with him into his life and offered the same to others as he had experienced and learned that day - that regardless of who you are and what you do,  take pride in what you do and always give it your best,  and if others do not like your career choice, then fuck them,  they are not important, what IS important is what you feel about yourself and your own choices in life.  If you do your best - if you give it your best shot - then fucking good for you and you SHOULD be proud of yourself and to hell with those fucked up queens who like to pull you down.

It still hurts when it comes from a friend though, as much as you know it shouldn't.

I had a phone call this week from my first lover who started in on me about what I 'should be doing' - and remembering that I was 16 when we first got together and he was 42 at the time and is now a very old man,  after a while of him keep using the word 'should' - I reminded him that he 'should'  also remember how hard it is running a hotel as we had run one together decades ago,   and now he is old and retired - many unemployed or retired people seem to forget what it is like to work long and hard hours and belittle those who do.

He kept saying I should visit this old lady friend and when I said I have no time, he said that this was all my choice to work so hard - and I responded that he was correct, it was my choice,   just as it was my choice NOT to visit this old lady friend,   and when he started belittling me about the choices I make - I remended him loud and clear that he had absolutely no right dictating to me about the choices I make in my life - absolutely none at all,  and I honestly don't think many have ever spoken back to him in this manner - as he was always an arrogant man - and he just hung up.

If this old lady was so lonely and desperate to see me, after almost 40 years - then she knows my phone number, she has all day to pick up the phone and by all means, I will then make the time to have a natter and may even then go and see her,  for as I always said to my Mother - 'PHONES WORK TWO WAYS. 

Try and be supportive towards others. Stop throwing your own 'stuff' at them  as it is transparantly clear that this is your own resentment, jealousy, bitterness and unhappiness being shown and while it may be your own stuff,  it can still hurt that you are not a true friend, a true supporter at all,  you are just putting others down to prop your own flagging self worth up.
 

WAR HORSES

Has anyone seen this film.  It's a bit of an epic story with these beautiful horses - absolutely beautiful animals,  and it is a bit of a tear jerker - but the end... OH MY GOD - what was Speilberg thinking.  No - I am not going to give the story away but just to say the way he has filmed it in the closing scenes is straight out of Gone With The Wind and if and when you see it,  you will know exactly what I mean.

It's a moving epic story and well worth seeing but have your tissues handy.


LIFE OF PI

Everyone kept telling me I shopuldf see this film, so as soon as it came out on DVd I bought a copy and sornt the evening transfixed.  This journey of self discovery - when a young boy is shipwrecked in a lifrboat with an adult Bengal Tiger - ( who naturally wantt to eat him ) has an amazing theme and weaves an intriguing story that is enthrawling. 
Beautifully filmed and brilliant CG and special effects,  it takes the viewer on a journey of mind, body and soul.

I must admit to getting teary in a copuple of parts and thoroughly enjoyed the film.  I can see whay it was such a big hit.
Beautifully filmed and acted.  Stunning special effects.  Lovely film.
 

   


It beggars belief, it really does...

 

Here is a challenge to you :  Where does it say in the Bible that two men cannot get married - Or to put it another way - Where in the Bible does it state that marriage is EXCLUSIVELY for men and women - Or to put it another way - Where does it say in the Bible that when two people love each other dearly, and they are the same sex, that the church must denounce their love and cast them into hell - Or to put it another way - Where does it say in the Bible that the Pope is the all seeing eyes and wisdom of God and that what he says is 100% pure and true ?
 

ALCOHOL IS THE BIGGEST KILLER

Alcohol is responsible for nearly 4 percent of deaths worldwide, and according to the World Health Organization, alcohol kills more people than AIDS, tuberculosis or violence. According to the CDC, alcohol abuse kills about 80,000 Americans annually, results in more than 1.2 million emergency room visits and 2.7 million physician office visits are due to excessive drinking. The economic costs of excessive alcohol consumption in 2006 were estimated at $223.5 billion. It’s the third leading cause of preventable death in the United States,  and 72 percent of those who die are men.
Of course, when it says that 80,000 people a year die, this figure is very short of the truth as we all know about drunk drivers who kill people, and how about the familt of the drunk - those in the firing line whose lives are often ruined, business' lost,  lives wrecked,  and the 80,000 figure is just those who die and does not list the lives ruined.

My sister died of too much vidka over a slow and long period and her liver packed up - and she had had a baby in that period who sadly died 18 months later - it also ruined every relationship she ever had, every job and everything she did - eventually - fell to pieces because of her drinking.  It's sad,  and it is an epidemic the government do little about while moaning on and on about drugs, which are SO not as dangerous or as deadly or as ingrained into the psyche of society as socially acceprable.  Every street corner. Every supermarket - SPECIAL OFFERS - HALF PRICE WINE AND BEER - 2-4-1 - and so forth and drinking is openly encouraged with bars and clubs everwhere and still the government do not know what to do to tackle this sad downfall of many.
 

SOUTHERN ELECTRIC 

Oh Dear God.  Give me strength.  

I moved my gas and electric to another company at Christmas and signed all the documentation and sent off the Direct Debit mandate, which the person handling my account claimed not to have received,  so she sent it again,:- I completed and e mailed it all back to her.  ( and this I can proove )

Now - 4 months later I receive a £2,000 gas bill and am expecting something similar for electric, and these should have been paid monthly through Direct Debit ( or at least the majority ) and yet the company has not set up a Direct Debit;-  they have never informed me this has not been done and I am really angry at how they have twice offerd a shoddy service and where I am now faced with crippling bills.

I appreciate the money has not been taken from my account each month and to be honest, I have better things to do that check up on every single Direct Debit that comes in and out of my account, especially when I have so much extra work to do besides checking up on big business.  Seems though, I should have... and any money not claimed by them each month has been spent - as I see money in the account and someone needing a free weekend and so it is spent on them... never on myself... and it really annoys.  After all the hard work. After all the years.  After all th late nights, no sex life and little else but give give give... Southern Electrric can now reduce me to tears.  

What is the fucking point ?
 

Since this, I have informed them that I expect to receive a sizeable discount on my bills which together, gas and electric for a 3 month period is just over £3,100  and I shall ask for 50% discount, which I am doubtful about but I shall MOST CERTAINLY expect something that will make them sting and sting hard. It needs to be a penalty that makes them realise they did wrong and that someone or something needs to change within their organisation and I will not be satisfied with a simple apology or a £20 gift voucher from M&S.

I shall keep you posted.

The company has offered me nothing. Loads of apologies but no compensation for the sleepless nights of worry - not a single dime fore their mikstakes but you and I both know how heavy handed they are if and when we make a kistake and their small print is full of penalties.

I fight on.

AQUAPONICS

a friend is starting to grow his veg using the water from his pond full of fish, to filter through his lettuce etc. and get pumped back into the pond, and the fish poo etc. is good for the plants and the plants grow without soil, and everyone is happy.  It looks amazing and although expensive to set up,  will produce far more than in soil and better quality all round - better taste - better size of crop and lots of pleasure in doing so.

If anyone has any experience in this - please share it with us.
 

GARDEN

The garden is starting to look lovely after a few sunny days where B&Q had a 50% off sale of plants and now the colour and the summer feels like it is just around the corner and I am excited. I love pottering in the garden although don't get much time really,  and it takes an hour to water all the flower pots every evening,  and I get delight out of it by others who enjoy the time out there, and I am really hopeful for a lonmg hot summer...  Fingers crossed.

It is so nice walking to dog and seeing all the new growth in the woods, all the wild flowers and blossom - and it makes me glad to be alive...  still worried about my gas bill,  ha ha ... but good to be alive.


 

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2012 - WHAT'S NEXT ?

Have we entered a new era for humanity ?   After the much talked about date   - that much anticipated date of December 21st 2012, which  has now passed, with millions around the world celebrating in some form or another, this has been the start of a new and potentially quite extraordinary era. 

The most true  prophecy was that after Dec. 21st -  would come Dec. 22nd and that life would go on just as before.  Millions marked the birthing moment with great beauty and unity across every continent and probably every country, each in their own unique way. And year 0001 was born - the New Age - or whatever you wish to call it.

Now, what we all activated in the collective mind of humanity - a vision for a new era, a commitment to global unity, a sense of being one human family - will take some time to grow up. It was just the beginning - as all births are - and it is now up to us to nurture and help grow the consciousness attached to this new age,  this birth - and help it grow.  For this is the time where we have planted the seeds and watered the ground,  and now need to sit back and guide the future generations to have solid and firm roots in honesty - and allow strong and secure branches to grow - and all of this is nurtured by our collective and individual consciousness  and how we continue to transform our own lives forward from this point and be the radiant embodiment of our higher potential.

Some say this is hard to achieve in a world so bogged down in the heavy negative energies that surround us,  and it really is a moment to moment thing.  It is easy to 'loose the plot' when you hear about what is going on in the world but it is also a reflection on what we see is what we are looking at.  If you wish to see doom and gloom then you will see doom and gloom.  If you wish to see beauty and light,  then this is just as available and just as easy and just as clear to our inner eye as well as our physical existence.  It is all a choice.  You see what you choose to see.

So make some changes in your life of those things that do not serve you.  Concentrate on the positive.  Be of the light and as your world changes, so will the world around you.  It only takes one person to change the entire planet and that person - is you.
 

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