Some months ago a guest and myself discussed our mutual interest in Sci Fi and we talked about the various TV programmes we loved and he mentioned Babylon 5. I stated I had seen just a few and that it had never grabbed me - and recently he gave on permanant load, the entire 5 year series on DVD with 110 programmes and various movies etc., and so I set about watching it - and OMG AM I HOOKED ???
I have been watching between 4 and 6 programmes an evening and have been up very late just watching the next and the next and loving it. We have been quiet here so it has been a joy to put my feet up and know I have a whole evening of sci fi fun.
Like any good soap opera, you get to know the people and the charachters and what drives them and often, even the baddies - you love, and last night I finnished the last of the 110 programmes and shall start on the movies in a few days , and it has been a fascinating and wonderous ride for the last few weeks.
Brilliantly written and very spiritual in many of its messages, I have been reduced to tears on many occasions.
Now that I have seen it all and it came to its conclusion, today I feel somewhat sad - not depressed as I don't get drpressed, but sad. For everything comes to an end. People leave and go their own seperate ways. Life changes and we remember back to what was, and all too often with reflection, we know it will never be the same again;- and as we go our seperate ways in life, meeting new friends and new loved ones, somehow, a little part of us stays in the past - a shaddow or a memory perhaps, and with each passing thought and with each passing moment, we remember a time gone by and we give thanks .... and we move into a new day taking those memories, those thoughts and experiences with us, making us stronger for the experiences we shared. Life can be a funny one, a lonely one, and while surrounded with tons of people and laughter, we are ultimately all on the same journey and will move onto new things, and as sad as it seems to miss 'what was' - we are all responsible for creating our own reality - and the future is a gift we have not yet created, and I pray for a wonderous road ahead.
Some years ago I offered a whole weekend of Sci Fi and had tons of interest but not a single booking, so maybe some time in the new year I will see what we can arrange and see if we can get together a group of Sci Fi Fans and share a whole weekend of movies and TV shows and just enjoy.
Would you be interested ?
A Christmas Story
'Twas the night before Christmas--Old Santa was pissed.
He cussed out the elves and threw down his list.
Miserable little brats, ungrateful little jerks.
I have a good mind to scrap the whole works!
I've busted my ass for damn near a year,
Instead of 'Thanks Santa'--what do I hear?
The old lady bitches cause I work late at night.
The elves want more money--The reindeer all fight.
Rudolph got drunk and goosed all the maids.
Donner is pregnant and Vixen has AIDS.
And just when I thought that things would get better
Those assholes from the IRS sent me a letter,
They say I owe taxes--if that ain't damn funny
Who the hell ever sent Santa Claus any money?
And the kids these days--they all are the pits
They want the impossible--Those mean little shits
I spent a whole year making wagons and sleds
Assembling dolls...Their arms, legs and heads
I made a ton of yo yo's--No request for them,
They want computers and robots...they think - I'm IBM!
Flying through the air...dodging the trees
Falling down chimneys and skinning my knees
I'm quitting this job there's just no enjoyment
I'll sit on my fat ass and draw unemployment.
There's no Christmas this year now you know the reason,
I found me a blonde. I'm going SOUTH for the season
Geoff and I visisted Hamilton Hall many times over the years and you will remember how we hated leaving at the end of the various periods with you, and always looked forward to the next visit. Geoff died recently as he had been ill for some time and knew for the last few years that he was terminal and while we kept this to ourselves, we were determined to make his last year or so memorable.
He loved his stays with you and the way you made us laugh. He loved the dinners around the table together and how you kept the conversation going. He always laughed and smiled when we spoke of you at home and when something happened that reminded us of you, he would say ' Oh that's a John Bellamy that is ...'
Geoff was 66 years of age and I will miss him dearly and know, that at the moment, I cannot return to Hamilton Hall as it has too many memories for me. One day in a year or so I shall see you again but the memories are still too close and I need some space to find my journey alone and without Geoff ( we were together for 18 years ) and see where my future takes me.
I thank you John for what you have given so freely - the love and support for so many people through Hamilton Hall and know that a lot of happy memories that died with Geoff are now joined with a higher power - and that one day I shall also be re joining Geoff on that journey, but before then I wanted to say thank you for everything.
CUTTING BACK ON CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS:
I spend a lot of time and a lot of money decorating Hamilton Hall for the festive season and this year, if I do not have it already, I am not wasting the money on new lights, new decorations or anything. I have tons of stuff from years gone by and this will be enough, this will more than be enough, and if people think it looks the same as past years, then they would be right. With a little twinkling and rearranging, I will make it look stunning and different - but will not be spending yet more money of stuff that only gets used once a year for a couple of weeks.
I AM NOT IMPRESSED BY WEALTH - UNLIKE SOME....
An old friend of mine in the USA is always trying to impress me. He asked if I would like to fly to the USA and return with him on the Queen Mary, all paid for by him. Recently he asked if I would like to see pictures of his 350 foot private beach and multi million $ home, and - as with the Queen Mary trip - I said no - and he was not pleased. As I stated, I am so much more interested in the man himself and where he is at in his life, than in his posessions or what his millions can buy. The sad thing is, we were lovers for some years - decades ago, and he still has not learned that I am not now, and never was, impressed with his wealth and with what and with whom he can buy with it. I find that kind of attitude shallow and insecure, and those who are impressed are the same - shallow and insecure. I am very pleased for him, that he can afford such a grend lifestyle, but it simply is not in my picture frame of life. I think of all the good things I could do with the money, the people I could help, not just at times when disaster strikes - as above - but to those around me who struggle every day.
Monery and posessions do not make a person - bragging about what you earn and what you have - just makes you look and sound sad and missing the point entirely. You have lost your humanity.
OLD AND ALONE BUT FUSSY ...
Just had a man asking about the Christmas break here and wanted to know that as we only have shared accommodation left, what was the ages of the other people he would be sharing with. When I pointed out it was not a habit of mine to ask peoples ages when they made a booking, he said he did not want to share with old people but only with young guys. So - naturally - as he sounded older, I asked him his age and when he said in his late 60's, I did have to remind him that maybe the younger people wouldn't want to share with someone as old as he was and that being picky and ageist goes two ways. I did state that his attitude was wrong and that he would end up alone at Christmas if he kept this idea of only wanting younger peoples company as he was the old man... and he barely accepted what I said and clearly was not convinced.
I find this kind of attitude really quite odd. It reminds me of the man who visited here - not as a guest but just to see the venue, who stated he did not want to share with some old disabled man - which made me laugh and as I stated to him - ' but YOU are the old disabled man with a walking stick and in your 70's ' - and he was horified to be told this... but he was. The audacity - the stupidity and living the delusion NEEDS and MUST be brought to their awareness and to be told the truth of the situation. Every one of us needs to live life in truth and not delude ourselves that we will meet Brad Pitt and that he will lust after us and it will be a relationship made in Heaven. GET FUCKING REAL.
Some young guys like older men,,, good for them.
Some old men like old men. Good for them.
Most young guys only want young guys and not their Grandpa... ESPECIALLY if sharing a room in a clothing optional hotel.
But being discriminatory when you get older does not serve you and ' being real ' goes a long way, otherwise you really will end up old and alone.
Now I really do believe there is noting wrong with being elderly, as I am 58 myself and getting up there. I have never - ever - had a problem with older man and at 16 years of age my lover - whom I lived with for 8 years - was 42, and as an escort in London, TONS of my clients were more than double my age and some of the sweetest men I knew back then were in their late 70's and even mid 80's, and we enjoyed sex together --- okay I was being paid --- but I did not find it offensive or cringey at all and was always very accommodating to those that many would turn away - the eldely and even the severely disabled. But I always kept it real. I never lived the fantasy and always knew my limits and always respected the truth, yet it seems many live a constant lie about themselves and are stuck in some time warp where they still see themselves as some hot 28 year old which was probably back in the 1960's and we all need to live in truth. Be real. Be honest with ourselves and know that guys who would have fallen over themselves to have sex with us 20 - 40 years ago, now see us as old farts - PERIOD. Get over it. Laugh at how you have grown into what you - maybe - would turn down decades ago - and how quickly you have become your own Father or even Grandfather and enjoy who you are, for the age you are, and do not resent or belittle or envy, just be who you are an be happy with that.
So this guys said he would leave it and I did have to remind him that we had a really good time here - loads of laughter and fun, company and friendship and community and that - maybe - most people were older and a little more mature but when it came to having fun and laughing, isn't that the important thing, to have fun and laugh, regardless of age. I told him he would be very welcome to join us and that we went along way in helping the elderly feel at home and part of things and not 'left out' - and yet sadly for him, he was not convinced and will probably spend the Festivities at home, alone, which is his choice - and while I wish him a Happy Christmas, he seem to be his own worst enemy.
I remember when my car broke down a decade ago having to ush it into the side of the road and my 80 year old Mother was going to get out and help give it a push with me, and when I asked where she was going and she said ' to help you push the car'- I did laugh and tell her to stay put in the car and that I could do it and that at 80 years of age, bless her for the thought, but it was innapropriate at her age to be pushing a car... and she also saw the funny side of it and said ' I see your point...'
WONDERFUL NEW WALK
Bournemouth is a stunning place to own a dog as there are - quite literally - scores of wonderful walks you can go on with your dog ranging from a 20 minute round the park to a 3 hour hike in the woods, and this week I discovered a whole new vista I had not seen before.
I often walk near Christchurch Harbour, which is all National Trust property, but this week I discovered the opposite side to where I usually go and it is spectacular. The views ( if I knew how to use a camera I'd take some pictures for you ) looking back towards Christchurch with the meandering river, headland, ancient priory and sea beds quite literally, takes your breath away. Half way - we came across a field full of horses just standing like statues, not moving at all, and it was quite sureal. We went back there today and this time took all sorts of carrots and apples and they were really quite motivated in pushing ech other aside to get the food, and although it was overcast and showery, it was the most lovely afternoon.
It is always nice to find a new place to visit with the dog and she seems to appreciate somewhere new as well and I shall - most certainly, make this one of my regular haunts. It is - unfortunately - a 15 minute drive from home in the car and so it not good for the old carbon thing... but is well worth the drive and the view is reward in itself.
STASH THE CASH. I can recommend you click on the logo to the left and watch this youtube video if you have extra cash you want to hide from the government and tax man, as this will tell you how to legally 'wash' your money and make it clean. So if you are a drug dealer, run illegal immigrants / women or maybe sell illegal arms, this 'STASH THE CASH' will help.
A policeman picked up a buskers guitar and started singing and playing an Oasis hit and had a huge crowd stand and listen, film on their phones and cheer. It is well worth watching - HERE and I think this is an amazing and remarkable thing and top marks to him.
P,C. Ian Northcott said ' It just felt the natural thing to do.'
Top marks to him.
To read more on this amazing policeman and his singing, read HERE
If you want a few days in Barcelona and do not know where to stay, take a look at this web site - BARCELONA APARTMENT which is owned by a friend of mine and is his really lovely apartment right in the heart of the city yet in a quiet location. Ten mimutes walk from almost anywhere in the city, it is well worth considering rather than an anonymous hotel. He is a George Clooney look-a-like and a very nice man and you will certainly get very good value for money and know that your hard earned cash is not going to some corporate hotel but to an individual.
Errol, the owner, is also a very fine yoga teacher and artist.
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