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CERTIFICATE OF EXCELLENCE
HAMILTON HALL 2014



I often see these awards and think - well - who voted that the best pub / club / gay venue - as no one asked me and who voted it the best ???   ... and consider it all a load of bollocks to get you to spend more money in their bar.  Trip Advisor;-  while I say they are tossers and a waste of time - this certificate of excellence is an award because of the amount of positive feedback we have received from those who have stayed here and THAT is wonderful and I am proud and thrilled about that.  Compared to many other venues, we could easily be a 3 or 4 star B&B but I do not buy into the tourist board schemes which - again - are just money spinners for the council - and I do not waste my money with something that has such little meaning. 

66% of visitors attend alone.
22% attend  with a partner / friend
6% come on business





 

 


STREISAND


It's official - Barbra Streisand's
Partners has entered the Billboard 200 chart at #1, making her the only recording artist in history to have a number one release in six consecutive decades!

Some might think this a little ' too gay ' but fuck'em.  I have loved Streisand since I was 16 years of age and bought every album, saw every film and TV interview and saw her live in concert 3 times and even went to the Royal Premier of 'Prince of Tides' and sat not 12 feet away from Princess Diana and Streisand... and have been a fan for a long time and I am thrilled that this new CD is so popular, for while it is not Streisand the belter - this is Streisand at 73 years of age and doing damned well.  It has a more mellow feel - probably because of her age and probably because her voice is more mature and lower in key,  and although I didn't think I was going to like the CD - and while I have never heard of half the male singers she is dueting with,  it aint half bad for an old girl... and well worth the money. 

Good on yu Babs... How about another Partners album but this time - as was originally thought - duets with Bette Midler, Byonce and other women singers... Now that would certainly get my attention.

 


LADIES UNDERWEAR

I have been asked if it would be an idea to out on a weekend for guys into wearing ladies stockings and panties etc. and thought I would ask for your input before I plan and advertise something that might not work.  So how would those of you who like this kind of fetish - enjoy a whole weekend to bring along your undies collection and parade for everyone else for the weekend.

Do let me know what you think.


Well - 2 weeks later not  a single response,  so we shall not be offering a Ladies Underwear weekend as with absolutely no input from anyone at all,  this is obviosusly a weekend that is unwanted.
 


STOLEN FROM HAMILTON HALL

I was gob smacked when I noticed today that 5 or 6 DVD's have been taken from our Bookshelf of FOR SALE items and considering I was selling these for someone else, I have now to pay him for something that a guest has stolen.

NOT FOR PROFIT guys - means just that - and someone STOLE FROM US ?

I am gob smacked - stunned and appalled that someone would steal from us, and as the DVD's were only between £5 and £7 each, is hardly a fortune and considering the value we offer here and the service,  to steal is just so low life, so common and so plebeian.


 


3 WEEKS TO GET A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT

Just made a doctors appointment, and was horrified to see I cannot get an appointment for almost 3 weeks.  Just as well it is not urgent or dire and I will have to suffer the pains of Gout for a while longer and hope it does not spread any further than it has already.  I find that appalling service - absolutely dreadful service - when you think a GP earns more than an MP - CONSIDERABLY MORE - and it takes almost 3 weeks to get an appointment ???  It definately seems the NHS is in need of some decent managament and half of those in managament at the moment obviously need replacing with those who can do the job in a more efficient and competant manner.

The old excuse that it needs more money thrown at it is may be true,  or maybe some of these people just need to do their job more effectively and then we would have less queues. 
I went to the doctor 3 times last year and 3 times he refused to send me to see a specialist and I am - once again - having to go back to the doctor for a 4th time and if catered correctly for back at the beginning, he would have saved himself 3 more visits and so had more time for other patients.

 


Birthday Boy

Stuart turned 71 this week and we had a roast chicken dinner here at Hammy Hall to celebrate with a Birthday Cake and everything, and then watched X Factor - ( how sad are we... )  Stuart is a regular customer here - coming at least 7 or 8 times a year  and just about everyone knows him by now.  I tease the crap out of him, always taking the piss and saying some funny something about him, to him, and he just laughs, although when I tease him about eating and being fat and this not being good for his health and how he needs to diet, he knows what I am saying to be true and I do keep on at him as he seems not to bother watching his weight and his health problems but complains all the time... so - if you do nothing about loosing weight,  you have no right to complain either.  So Happy Birthday Stuart... 71 years young.

 


BLACK EYE

I have a black eye at the moment. My left eye is quite bruised from an encounter the other day and while it started out as a laugh and fun it ended with me holding my eye and moaning about the pain ( butch - NOT... )  and this came about not because I was involved in a  fight with someone or anything as tough,  but from enjoying a game with my dog and she head butted me twice in the same eye within seconds - and she appeared not to feel a thing - talk about a head like a brick  - while I was on the floor... moaning...
The next day a huge bruise had come up and my sweet lovie dog seems not to care a toss that she hurt me... BITCH ...  and is unaware of her actions, she was more concerned I had stopped playing with her...
I will survive..
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The full moon on September 9th 2014 affected me like it has never done before. I awoke in the night with a stinking headache and so took some tablets with a couple of biscuits ( so not on an empty stomach ) and within half an hour I was throwing up in the toilet - quite violently,  and groaned back  in bed afterwards in pain as I had just thrown up the pain killers and so had to tollerate the headache.  Hours slowly ticked by until I had to get up and do breakfast here and luckily Shaun was here ( my staff member ) and I had a half banana and then left him to do brekkie for me and went back to bed taking some more tablets with the banana and as before, violently threw it all up again... and spent until 10am in bed - which is unheard of for me - and did awaken with headache gone but shakey for the rest of the day - and so spent a couple of hours in the afternoon relaxing and sleeping to gain my energy levels back.
Three friends came by the next day and all 3 had had exactly the same thing through the night - headache  and throwing up - and I wondered if the Full Moon had anything to do with it as while I do get headaches often,  it was unusual to be that bad and to throw up twice - which coincidentally - we had all done.
So maybe it was the Super Full Moon ( not seen for another 13 months )  and whether the vibration / energy created by it - somehow upset us all,  I shall never know,  but for someone who is generally in good health ( I take no meds for anything and at nearly 60,  I don't know anyone whop is not on meds for something or other ) and whjile I do get headaches and tummy tropubles, arthritus and other aches and pains, I am generally fit and in good shape for my advanced age ( ha ha - boo hoo )  so shall watch out for the next full moon and pray it was a one of occurance as it is not elegant with your head down the loo throwing up and hearing the groaning  sounds echoing up from the toilet pan - and the taste in my throat seemed to linger throughout the day regardless of eating and drinking...  Not fun... Not serious but still not fun.  It really makes me appreciate and value good health.


 

It's been a beautiful day and although I was left with no car for some hours on a very busy day - as someone else had borrowed the car and forgotten to return the keys - which really irritated and annoyed, we walked to Christchurch harbour and it was beautiful. The weather - the scenery and even this wonderful big Golden Retreiver that adopted me to throw its ball for it and I eventually had to throw the ball towards its owner so he would go on  back to its owner and not stay with me and Missy... and he was a fabulous big fluffy softie ...


BEING NICE TO SOMEONE DOES NOT MEAN YOU WANT TO HAVE SEX,

MOVE IN AND BE TOGETHER FOR ALWAYS.


Yet it seems to some people it does and I received an e mail from a customer claiming my staff member,- who was nice and pleasant, maybe a bit flirty towards the customer and who, it seemed, was sharing a laugh and a good few days - which we do with a great many of our guests;-  
took it to be something very different and has threatened us with a bad review on Trip Advisor and a few other threatening comments about items which are really serious and which I do not now - or ever - tolerate - and if you want to see the old 'hooker attitude' come out in me, where I come out fighting for my venue,  this sort of threat and the person who sends it will get dealt with once and for all. 


It seems that he assumed friendship was meant to indicate something else and he took it that this was leading to sex and romance and all the things in life he was searching for - and all with a member of staff in his holiday hotel...  and where we are nice to everyone in such a manner.

I have only ever banned 5 people from Hamilton Hall because of bad behaviour or blatant threats which I do not take lightly,  and it is very rare,  but it is these assholes that are the reason so many venues like Hamilton Hall - ie: gay hotels / B&B's - close after between 5 and 10 years as the owners are sick and tired of the abuse and irritating customers who act in this fashion.

This person has done this before and after having words  and putting him in his place some 4 or 5 years ago now,    we moved on and forgave and forgot and all was fine and here he is doing something very similar again and I have now had enough.  It's been a long and tiring season and I work 7 days a week - 12 - 15 hours a day - for no wages - where we struggle as a venue financially,-  and what we offer here and even myself are HUGELY respected and valued by a HUGE amount of people and when those with some kind of fucked up agenda or mental health issue tries spoiling it for others, and where I have enough to do without wasting hours of my time trying to sort it out,  - it does spoil things. 

I spent a couple of hours sending him an e mail that is worded just right and once sent, and this BLOG put together to share it with you, I shall now wait and see if an apology is forthcoming and if not, he will be banned - I will not tolerate  people with emotional troubles throwing their crap at me and my venue. Period.

Then I shall have a cuppa, make a sarnie for a late lunch and get on with the work that has piled up around me while sorting this out and consequently I now have an even longer day than I thought when I got up this morning.


So if I invite you up to my room to watch a movie,  or something on the telly or just to sit and talk and you assume it is with a  hidden agendas and I want to get into your pants and have sex with you - think again - as that arrogant and misplaced logic will get you into serious trouble,   as I do not...  and you can stay on your own and stay lonely as long as you assume everyone is available and wanting you.   Because  - we do not.
 


SPIRITUALITY AND MEN



Spirituality and Men (SAM)
is a self-development group run by men for men, aiming to explore the spirit of man through informative dialogue, honest interaction and the silence of meditation.

This group meets on the first Sunday of every month at Global Co-operation House.

ALL MEN WELCOME

For further information, please contact the SAM team: sam@uk.brahmakumaris.org

 

 


Thought you might like to see these e mails to and from Hammy Hall.  

It did make me laugh.

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To Hamilton Hall :-    ' If I come to see any of your clients in the hotel do I have to pay anything?'

My Answer: :- 'I have no idea what you are talking about … . in plain English please.'

His answer :- 'In plain English: Can I come to your Hotel and have sex with your clients (I expect your clients to pay me) You can not expect me to pay for anything as I am short of money.'

My answer :-  'In plain English - FUCK OFF'

 

 


I DO NOT POLICE HAMILTON HALL

BUT I WILL NOT TOLLERATE BAD DRUNKEN BEHAVIOUR.


It is such a shame when someone turns into a vile bitchy queen,  obnoxious and agressive, doesn't listen and repeats the same old crap over and over and over and who will not listen and will not calm down and will not respect others and will not behave - after they have had a few drinks.  Personally I dislike drunks. I dislike their whole demeaneur even if giggly and fun.  I especially dislike it when they are too ' in your face'  and will not take no for an answer and will not leave you alone and back off... and last night I had to have a little talk with someone over their behaviour and again this morning as it is not fun for me and when other guests mention it over breakfast and when I find out how others were disturbed by it, then I know it is time to take action and control the situation before it gets out of hand. 
A lame apology was eventually forthcoming but only after a severe talk from myself,  and we shall see if the good guy returns or the bad guy - as the bad guy will be told to leave if he cannot behave himself.  We all want a pleasant few days and my guests deserve the best that we can offer and when one individual with attitude spoils it for the others,  then this individual obviously has a need, a desperate need, for attention at any cost,  and this is where the therapist side of me kicks in and recognises various signs and where I put my therapist hat on ( so to speak )  - and tell people to behave.  Bit like a strong Mother figure... 


Sadly this individual ' had a go' at several people staying and most left the room every time he came in and he became the talking point of the weekend - with much fun and laughter spoken about him behind his back,  as everyone was gobsmacked at his vile attituide, rude manner and agressivness.  He was not physically threatening,  just one of those gobby vile queens who sees life in a very distorted and disturbing way compared to just about everyone else and this attempt to ruin the weekend for everyone else backfired on him as everyone just walked out and ignored him.

One evening everyone was playing a game in the lounge and slowly everyone left and came up to my apartment where we sat and watched a movie together and chilled, laughed and generally had fun and it was some time later they shared with me that they had come up because they wanted to get away from ' the man'  and while this made me giggle,  I did feel sorry for a man who did not know how to behave to such a degree that he and his lover were abaondoned by just about everyone as they simply didn't like being with them.

I had words twice with the guys partner and told him the full facts and he even said he had wondered why everyone had left the lounge the night before and wondered where everyone had  gone and how they were left alone all evening, and I had to make sure he knew the exact reason, as if he cannot get through to Mr. Vile' then the man will never learn and grow and improve.


So - not being afraid to speak up - I did - and it is doubtful anything will change,  but it is a very long time ago since I met a more vile gay man who everyone grew to dislike intensley.  Booze was part of the story and a fucked up individual was a large part of it as well.

Luckily,  this is very rare at Hammy Hall and I sincerely hope he hears what was said and makes some changes or he will end up a very lonely and sad old man with no friends.

 

I have  also become very aware this summer how many people assume I only have one e mail or one phone call per day to answer - theirs - and that when they phone I should know who they are, what they are talking about and everything that may have been mentioned in an e mail - one of between 50 - 100 received every day - and was probably answered hours beforehand.
Telling me how to run my business is going to get my goat.  Telling me how you intend doing business with me regardless of how I choose to do business is going to irritate and when I state my case, clear and honest,  they seem to think I am rude for ignoring their input when they have utterly and completely ignored my business accumen and how I actually do business and they have told me how they intend to proceed with absolutely no consideration for me at all,  and I do not stand for it. 

WTF planet are these guys from.

Try making a hotel booking at the Savoy in London - or book a flight on BA and see how quickly the booking is made when you state you do not have a credit card but will pay cash on the day / on arrival, and that yes - you are honest and genuine and yes, you can be trusted - honestly ... and either they consider the world to be an absolute idiot or they assume I am, and naturally, they get told we do not do business this way and the attitude I get in return is often breath taking in its attitude towards me.

I appreciate a lot of married men are worried about being found out and wish to remain anonymous;-   but I also am considerate of my customers safety and security in the building and I need confirmed bookings from everyone to add to that security and protection.  Last evening a customer opened the front door to a complete stranger who was ringing the front door bell and who hadn't considered the ramification of what he was doing - especially as I was on my way down to answer the door -  and how this complete stranger could have been anyone;-   a queer basher - the vice squad, an abusive homophobe -  or a vouyeur who just wants to come in and see some naked men - and it could have been anyone - and while we have never - ever - had any problems like this - the customer who opened the front door didn't know this and not only that, when opening the door my dog went out and he had absolutely no control over trying to get my dog back in.  I gently told him not to do this again and he was completely taken-aback at why I was teklling him off gently and I had to point out some of the above facts to him and bring him into awareness of his stupidity in someone elses venue.

If I come to your home and you are busy somewhere, I am not about to answer your phone if it rings unless you tell me to - or answer your front door to a complete stranger without your permission and I MOST CERTAINLY would not invade your privacy and allow strangers I do not know in to your home even if they do say they are your friends, as I don't know them.

The mind boggles - it really does.

 

 


CAN I SUGGEST YOU DO NOT USE UK MAIL

It is the most amateurish and incompetent company I have ever had the misfortune to expect a delivery from.

After telling them I am NOT HOME BETWEEN 1 - 5pm - take a guess what time they tried delivering a parcel here - go on - guess...

Yup that is right - Between the very hours I told them I was not available.  Actually at 2pm.

When I complain, which you have to find a number from their web site as there is nothing at all on the card they post through your door,  I got condescending and rude attitude from Customer Care and told there was nothing they could do to change things and the parcel would be returned to the sender if I was not there all day to receive it - or collect it myself from their depot, which is miles away and why the hell should I - they have been paid to deliver a parcel so I expect it delivered in a competent and professional manner, sadly, something UKMail are unable to offer.


DISGRACEFUL CUSTOMER SERVICE

I never got my parcel and hile I have no idea who it was from or what it was,  UK Mail's arrogance and bed customer service was paramount in this.  They kept claiming the sender needed to upgrade his contract with them so they can deliver at different times and this is just bullshit to me. The copmpany failed to deliver a parcel - especially as they were instructed what times I WAS NOT AVAILABLE, and they still screwed it up.

I WILL NEVER - EVER - USE UKMAIL.

 

 




THE 'GAY AGENDA'

 




I watched a cringey youtube video about 'X MEN AND THE GAY AGENDA' through the films ' X MEN' (  CLICK HERE AND WATCH IT NOW ) and how the director had sex with young boys and raped them as part of the gay agenda to turn young boys gay, and I have never ever heard anything so absurd. WHAT THE FUCK IS A GAY AGENDA ?  I have been an out gay man for alomst 50 years. I have run various gay organisations, gay business' and even worked for 20 years in the sex industry - involved with thousands of people over the years and not once, never ever - have I ever heard of a hidden gay agenda and it seems it must come from the straights who are convinced we are about to brainwash all young boys and take over the world - or something.

I must point out here that paedophilia is predominately straight - about 90% straight - and not gay at all,  yet the straights do like to scream and holla about gay men screwing young boys and in all my years I have only ever met one man who had been convicted for having a wank with a teenage boy and he as a little odd - as in he was not the sharpest pencil in the box - or to the point, he had special needs mentally himself. 

What is this gay agenda that the straight world seems to transfixed with that we gay people know absolutely nothing about - and when you say this - all they can say is that we are lying, living in denial,  hiding the truth from the people,   when the truth is - there is no gay agenda any more than there is an agenda by gay men to take over the world and turn all men gay - or for gay men to fly to the moon and make it a gay macca or any other ludicrous ideology created out of warped minds bent on some kind of fear based rhetoric that has - in many ways - been used for centuries to damn and destroy people they fear - and why do they fear gay man - 
BECAUSE THEY FEAR THEIR OWN SEXUALITY AND BECAUSE THE CHURCH FEARS GAYS THE ABILITY WE HAVE OF INTUITION.  PERIOD.


It REALLY is about time these scared little boys grew up and turned their attention to the mass murder and mayhem their own governments are  doing in Iraq and Afghanistan and how even America is now getting into bed with their own worst enemy, the one country they claim is the creation of all evils and all terrorism ( no - not America itself although you wouldn't be far wrong ) but Iran.  Let's concentrate on truth here and not the fear based crap that so many like to throw about that is precisely that - CRAP.

Now:  If you know something about a gay agenda that I have been missing for the last 50 years - other than we demand equality and acceptance just like black, asian, aboriginal and Essex people have been demanding for decades ( just joking about those from Essex... )  then PLEASE enlighten me , but be honest, be truthful and above all, be adult and  do not approach your thoughts through your dick or through fear but through rational adult and educated input of honesty.  Anything else is just dangerous and unenlightened.

 





JB
 

 


Now that the summer is over we are allowed with the dog on the beach again and she just loves it... hates the water --- but loves the sand and running around.
Any day you fancy a glorious walk with me and my dog, usually around 1pm,  just pop on by and you are very welcome to join us and we can chat and share a laugh while we take in some beautiful scenery somewhere, not necissarily the ebach, as Bournemouth has tons of stunning places to walk a dog.

 

 




 

 



THE COMPANIES WITH THE WORST CUSTOMER SERVICE IN THE UK

 






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Julian Assange's dramatic arrival at the Ecuadorian embassy

The news today is about how Julian Assagne has been holled up in the embassy for 2 years at a cost of around £11,000 a day to tax payers to keep a police presence outside in case he tries to leave.

ABSOLUTELY OUTRAGOUS.

£70,000 a week from tax payers money.

Remember guys:  This man is only wanted for questioning - THAT IS ALL - to answer questions on trumped up charges of rape.  I do not see the government paying out millions of £ looking for other people who have not been proven guilty, have no warrants out for their arrest or anything else illegal - he is only wanted FOR QUESTIONING by Sweden... THAT IS ALL,   and we all know it is because America wants to get their hands on him because he has shown the world what a criminal and immoral government it has and they wish to silence him and hide their guilt.


This is absolute madness.  I fully support this man and all wistleblowers who expose government corruption and abuses and this is another government abuse - wasting so much money - OUR MONEY - and over 2 years that is over £7 MILLION - and for what ?

The USA want this man. Period. I do NOT believe the trumped up charhges against this man - it is just an excuse for the US government to bully its way around the globe and shut up anyone who tells the public the evils they are getting up to. 

Disgraceful.

 

 




On November 1 2014 we have a major problem ! The British parliament loses the right to legislate over us in 43 very important areas, the British parliament will have to seek approval from the EU for any laws they wish to pass on those 43 areas. The British Parliament also loses the right of veto over those areas. Those areas are as follows:

1)Administrative cooperation, 2)Asylum, 3)Border Controls, 4)Citizens initiative regulations, 5)Civil Protection, 6)Committee of the regions, 7)Common Defence Policy, 8)Crime prevention incentives, 9)Criminal judicial cooperation, 10)Criminal Law,   11)Culture, 12)Diplomatic judicial cooperation, 13)Economic Social Committee, 14) Emergency International aid, 15)Energy, 16)EU Budget, 17)Eurojust, 18)European Central Bank, 19)European Court of Justice, 20)Europol,  21)Eurozone external representation, 22)Foreign Affairs High Representation Election, 23)Freedom of Movement of Workers, 24)Freedom to Establish a Business, 25)Freedom, Security, Justice, cooperation & evaluation policy, 26)Funding the Common Foreign & Security Policy, 27)General economic interest services, 28)Humanitarian Aid, 29)Immigration, 30)Intellectual property,
31) Organisation of the Council of the EU, 32)Police cooperation, 33)President of the European Council election, 34)Response to natural disaster & terrorism, 35)Rules concerning the Armaments Agency, 36)Self-employment rights, 37)Social Security Unanimity, 38)Space, 39)Sport, 40)Structural & Cohesion Funds, 41)Tourism, 42)Transport, 43)Withdrawal of a member state

 


After UKIP won a resounding success in the recent elections,  barely a week goes by before the EU is demanding billions more from the UK to pay towards those corrupt countries who have screwed the system within Europe and now expect the UK to cough up more billions to help them out of the shit they put themselves into through fraud and corruption.   IT ABSOLUTELY BEGGARS BELIEF and either the EU commision is having a laugh at us and assume we are absolute assholes, - or they are the assholes with absolutely no idea what is going on in the real world.

When a country shows quite clearly that it wants out of Europe - or at least some radical changes made - and they then completely ignore this and slam a huge extra charge against us - either they are just fucking morons or this is deliberate - and whatever it may be -   I am now questioning the EU and how it is run and the corruption and blatant fraud and question why we are paying so many billions into this boys club that sees fit to throw this kind of abuse at the UK.

 

 


GROWING IN MY GARDEN


Love spending the day in  the garden - siting geting the sun - and with this spectacular weather lately, I get as much as I can, which is not a lot as I have work to do, but this morning look what I found at the bottom of the garden growing in the bushes..... and I have to say it was a surprise to me as I thought it was going to be a Sun Flower yet this weedy thing grew up instead.

To hell with tomatoes and lettuce - I think I know what I want to grow every year from now on... 

Now, I am not sure what I should do with this example of flowemanhood - maybe pick it and put it in a vase of water and take it to my bedroom and see how it can brighten my evenings...  or set it free to grow and roam where it wants - or keep it prisoner for my enjoyment only.

WTF am I going on about ?  Too much sun perhaps ?  Whatever;-   He is quite a catch.  Just wish he really was in my garden...

Ah well, time to get naked and get some sun.  It is so nice now the summer is here and that long wet - but mild - winter is over. Pray for long hot sunny days and warm evenings where we keep windpows open all the time and enjoy the fresh sea breeze through the house and enjoy the smells of the ocean, flowers and summer.



That leaf he is holding is not that big though.....
 

 



MUST WATCH VIDEOS

 


Drag Queen Panti Bliss's

viral homophobia speech





6 February 2014 Last updated at 22:03 GMT

An impassioned speech by an Irish drag queen about what constitutes homophobia has been viewed more than 300,000 times on YouTube, prompting thousands of comments.

Panti Bliss was already an icon of Ireland's gay scene, but her profile has just rocketed. In a speech at the Abbey Theatre in Dublin at the weekend, Panti spoke of the "oppression" she feels as a gay person living in Ireland - including her own sense of internalised oppression.

Filmed by Conor Horgan

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE
  /  LONGER VERSION HERE


MORE HERE   /    INTERVIEWED HERE   /   
 

 





WATCH THIS VIDEO HERE


an amazing lyric and video about gay love










 

 

The world only beats a path to your door when you're in the bathroom.



This amazing video of 4 black swans surfing the tide 





WATCH HERE


 

When I'm finally holding all the right cards, everyone wants to play chess.

 

It was a whole lot easier to get older than it was to get wiser.

 



 


JUDGE JUDY - CLICK AND WATCH AN INTERVIEW

 

 


This is so sweet, a dog who discovers he doesn't have to swim

WATCH THIS HERE

 

 


 


Dear John

Geoff and I visisted Hamilton Hall many times over the years and you will remember how we hated leaving at the end of the various periods with you,  and always looked forward to the next visit.  Geoff died recently as he had been ill for some time  and knew for the last few years that he was terminal and while we kept this to ourselves,  we were determined to make his last year or so memorable.  

He loved his stays with you and the way you made us laugh.  He loved the dinners around the table together and how you kept the conversation going. He always laughed and smiled when we spoke of you at home and when something happened that reminded us of you, he would say  ' Oh that's a John Bellamy that is ...'  

Geoff was 66 years of age and I will miss him dearly and know,  that at the moment, I cannot return to Hamilton Hall as it has too many memories for me.  One day in a year or so I shall see you again but the memories are still too close and I need some space to find my journey alone and without Geoff ( we were together for 18 years )  and see where my future takes me.

I thank you John for what you have given so freely - the love and support for so many people through Hamilton Hall and know that a lot of happy memories that died with Geoff are now joined with a higher power - and that one day I shall also be re joining Geoff on that journey, but before then I wanted to say thank you for everything.  

Malcolm

 

 


Tony Bray died just before Christmas, and I shall miss him.  He was a good and dear friend who visited and loved Hamilton Hall and would sit in the Conservatory meeting and greeting people as they came and went and everyone loved his peaceful and charming manner.  He was 79 years of age and a real sweetheart.    He will be missed, dearly missed.
 

 


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GDP INCLUDES SEX AND DRUGS / SANTO - GM PEOPLE

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I urge you to click on the picture above as watch the preview for a movie about a GM company in the future creating havoc on the planet.  This is a sure sign of things to come if we do not take action now and curb Monsanto and its dangerous GM products.

Did you know that the Monsanto Protection Act (
SEE HERE) gives corporations power over any legislation for prosecution if they screw the whole thing up and poison the people, the environment, the food chain or just about anything.

IT IS VITAL YOU KNOW THE DANGERS OF MONSANTO AND GM FOODS AND DO NOT BLINDLY BELIEVE THE BS YOU THINK IS CORRECT.

 

 


28/06/2014
KEISER REPORT ON RT TV NEWS
RUSSEL BRAND INTERVIEWED:



GROSS DOMESTIC PRODUCT:-

The total value of goods and services

provided in a country during one year.

 


It seems that the GDP of the UK

INCLUDES £10 BILLION from

the sex industry and illegal drug trade.


Seems that while there are laws against these - the governmnet is not daft enough to ignore the amount of money garnered through these industries and include it in the GDP.  
I had a friend years ago who was making £40,000 a month selling illegal drugs and he told me he paid tax and that the tax man knew exactly how he earned his money and that if caught, he would face decades in jail, and if caught, the tax man would not be prosecuted or held accountable in any manner.


When I was a sex worker, I sat 6 feet over a desk from my tax inspector and told him EXACTLY how I earned my living and I was taxed accordingly - and yet the sex industry is supposedly illegal Aand anyone living off my sex trade income would be called a PIMP and jailed for years and yet as the tax man knew what I did and took tax accordingly - what does that make the tax man - YOU GOT IT - A PIMP.

It seems illegal money can be taxed and counted as GDP and this just amazes and astounds me, the hypocricy and double standards of government.

 

 


How One Drag Queen

Won Over Europe

(and Pissed Off Russia)


READ THE ARTICLE HERE
 

 


HAMILTON HALL OFERS CONCHITA WURST

A FREE HOLIDAY HERE ANY TIME SHE WISHES TO COME TO THE UK 

 

 

 


Nothing to do with Eurovision - but this song HAPPY is well worth watching
and tapping your feet to. You will recognise it. Click on the picture of Pharrell Williams below




If you put HAPPY into youtube it will come up with scores of people from all over the world with their own videos of this song and their own dancing to it,  and there are tons to choose from and many really well done. It seems millions have accepted and love this song and it seems to be the song of 2014 already.

 

 

Eighty-eight thousand deaths a year?
One in 10 people in America die from alcohol abuse each year.

 


IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY HERE , THEN LEAVE

This speach below was reputated to be from the Australian Prime Minister and on the internet there is tons of stuff claiming it to be fake.  Regardless of that, the words and sentiment are strongly felt about the Immigration Policy here in the UK from all those coming in from within Europe - besides the refugese from Islamic countries fleeing war and destruction.
I thought you might like to read it here prior to the European Elections that are coming up soon.

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Prime Minister Kevin Rudd - Australia

'IMMIGRANTS, NOT AUSTRALIANS, MUST ADAPT.. Take It Or Leave It. I am tired of this nation worrying about whether we are offending some individual or their culture. Since the terrorist attacks on Bali, we have experienced a surge in patriotism by the majority of Australians.'

'This culture has been developed over two centuries of struggles, trials and victories by millions of men and women who have sought freedom'

'We speak mainly ENGLISH, not Spanish, Lebanese, Arabic, Chinese, Japanese, Russian, or any other language. Therefore, if you wish to become part of our society. Learn the language!'

'Most Australians believe in God. This is not some Christian, right wing, political push, but a fact, because Christian men and women, on Christian principles, founded this nation, and this is clearly documented It is certainly appropriate to display it on the walls of our schools. If God offends you, then I suggest you consider another part of the world as your new home, because God is part of our culture.'

'We will accept your beliefs, and will not question why All we ask is that you accept ours, and live in harmony and peaceful enjoyment with us.'

'This is OUR COUNTRY, OUR LAND, and OUR LIFESTYLE, and we will allow you every opportunity to enjoy all this. But once you are done complaining, whining, and griping about Our Flag, Our Pledge, Our Christian beliefs, or Our Way of Life, I highly encourage you take advantage of one other great Australian freedom, 'THE RIGHT TO LEAVE'.' 'If you aren't happy here then LEAVE. We didn't force you to come here. You asked to be here. So accept the country YOU accepted.'

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US Secretary of State, John Kerry representing a country which makes Genghis Khan look like a wimp when it comes to illegal invasions, still retains the prize for jaw dropper of the decade:

"You just don't, in the 21st century, behave in 19th century fashion by invading another country on completely trumped up pretext", he pontificated on CBS' "Face the Nation." 

It really is enough to take your breath away,- the gall of this idiot.  Does he assume we are all idiots ?

 


DOES OBAMA THINK WE ARE ALL NUTS ?


President Obama spoke in Brussels on Wednesday on the Russia-Ukraine situation. At one point, in seeking to shame Russia for its actions, Mr. Obama actually went so far as to try and legitimize America's catastrophic actions in Iraq, so as not to appear hypocritical in his comments. His words:

"Moreover, Russia has pointed to America's decision to go into Iraq as an example of Western hypocrisy… But even in Iraq, America sought to work within the international system. We did not claim or annex Iraq's territory. We did not grab its resources for our own gain. Instead, we ended our war and left Iraq to its people and a fully sovereign Iraqi state that could make decisions about its own future."

Facts: America ran roughshod over the international community to get that war going. If an invasion and ten-year occupation isn't annexation, then nothing is. Companies like Halliburton/KBR absolutely grabbed Iraq's resources, because their oil was supposed to "pay for the war," and there were gas lines in Iraq for years after the invasion, because those companies sat on that oil like it was their own private piggy bank… which it was, as it turns out. And as for the state we left Iraq in, thousands upon thousands of people have been killed in the sectarian strife left in our wake. They aren't making decisions about their future. They're running for their lives.

That this president dared to attempt to paper over the horrific smash-and-grab war crime that was America's invasion of Iraq is not merely disgusting; it is dangerous in the extreme, because we are doomed to repeat what we allow ourselves to forget.

 


How to Live with No Regrets

Living a life free of regrets involves letting go. It involves letting go of the would-have, should-have, could-have mentality. Dwelling on how you could have lived differently is detrimental to your spirit. Sometimes we do the best we can with the knowledge we have at the time. Frequently the wrong choices bring us to the right places. Make the choice now to forgive yourself, as the world needs the best of you. You cannot give your best when you dwell on past hurts or perceived mistakes…

 

 


 


The following BOURNEBATERS poll is now closed. Here are the
final results:

POLL QUESTION:

HAS AGE CHANGED YOUR SEXUAL REQUIREMENTS

CHOICES AND RESULTS
- YES, 19 votes, 41.30%
- NO, 14 votes, 30.43%
- DRAMATICALLY SO FOR THE BETTER, 11 votes, 23.91%
- DRAMATICALLY SO FOR THE WORSE, 1 votes, 2.17%
- INDIFFERENCE TO SEX, 1 votes, 2.17%

For more information about this group, please visit
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/BOURNEBATERS
 

 





 

 


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SAD TO SEE HIM GO

You have heard me talk here about my next door neighbour - the straight man who is 6'7" - handsome and bearded and hung like a horse ( don't ask how I know - I just do... ha ha  ) and yes, he is straight and while we have a joke and a laugh together and we have seen each other naked on a few occasions back in the summer,  I do not - ever - cross those boundaries and never would. We are friends and while tongues waggle and gossip spreads,  we are friends and nothing more.

Anyway, he was a really useful friend to have right next door as he is an electrician and brilliant handy man to have around -  and as Hammy hall is always in need of some minor something being done - and he was clever on computers as well... it was a deliught :-   and he has moved to Spain to see what opportunities open up for him over there, and I send my very best wishes and hope everything goes well for him.

England can be such a hard country to live in and although we have had a very mild winter, it has been very grey and wet - as you all know - and business is down and everyone seems to be saving their money and even his electrical work seemed to dry up over here whereas in Spain it seems there is a ton of work for him within the Ex Pat community ( an English speaking electrician ... worth his weight in gold  ) and I wish him well.

Some people locally have found fault and said he won't last 3 months and my answer is to stop being so negative - stop being so half empty - and offer some support.  Good luck to him - I hope and pray he makes a huge sucess in Spain and finds himself.  

I always state that if it does go belly up and he needs to return here,  he is always welcome to stay here as my friend for free until he gets the tennants out of his flat and if that takes 6 months,  it's not a problem.  Having that lifeline is always a good thing to have available,   as if things do go wrong abroad, so many people stick with it and then drown in unhappiness and debt - being afraid to go home with their tail between their legs - rather than head held high for trying.

I wish him well and when he has that massive villa with sun terrace and huge pool,  I shall go out and take a free holiday and some R&R.

Good luck Chris, my prayers are with you.

John

 

 



 

 







So - remind me once again, what is it that these guys above are guilty of - oh I remember -

sharing the truth of what our governments are up to that they want kept hidden for fear

the people will rise up in absolute horror at what they have been up to and kick them

out of power and make a lot of changes - perhaps.  

So, it seems the government has more to hide from the people than they care to let on.  

I wonder why ?


 


TWO GEOLOGISTS WITH BP SAY FRACKING IS NOT GOOD

Had a couple of guests stay recently who worked as geologist with a ' BIG PETROLEUM' company ( hint ) and when I asked them about Fracking they both said much the same thing,   that it was not environmentally a good idea as the concept of high pressure water and chemicals being pumped underground was unknown and the damage these chemicals were / would / could do to the water table, the environment was dangerous and unknown and could cause earth quakes and it could be very dangerous to human and animal health.   There simply was no evidence to claim it is safe whereas the common sense about the dangers is clear.

This coming from professionals who work in the field  , travelling the world working in the oil and gas industry for over 50 years between them.

Interesting that two very seperate geologists both said much the same thing.

 



 

 





Our new advert in Gay Times.  Have you seen it yet ? 
 

 

 

 

 


STOP THE WAR - AGAIN- 'INDECT', A HIDDEN EUROPEAN PROBLEM

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STOP THE WAR MARCH - OCTOBER 4th 2014
 

Stop the bombing of Iraq - don't attack Syria
National demonstration, Saturday 4 October


Assemble 1pm,
Temple Place,
London WC2R 3BD


Parliament has voted for the third Iraq War. The last two have brought almost unimaginable suffering to the people of Iraq and have helped to create the current chaos, driving the country to the brink of break up.

They claim this is a humanitarian operation to defeat Isis. In fact Isis is backed by various middle east powers and a new aerial bombardment will not defeat it. It will however kill innocents, further fragment the country and inflame violence.

The record of the west's wars in Afghanistan, Iraq and Libya show that as well as creating misery and mayhem, western military interventions make the world a more volatile, dangerous place. 

Cameron's new war has built-in mission creep. Discussions are already underway for Britain to join the bombing of Syria, and there are growing calls for boots on the ground.

The Stop the War Coalition is asking every one of its supporters to throw themselves in to the campaign against the insanity of another war on Iraq.

Spread the word everywhere about next Saturday's demonstration:

  • Get the anti-war message onto every High Street and community. Organise petitioning, leafleting, street meetings and protests where you  live. Phone or e-mail us to be put in touch with other local anti-war activists.
  • Join the anti war-contingent tomorrow on the protests at the Tory Party conference. Meet 11am, ICC, Broad Street, Birmingham B1 2EA
  • Share the event with your Facebook contacts
  • Download and print factsheet
  • A leaflet for the demonstration will be available to download in the next few hours

Stop the War Coalition | office@stopwar.org.uk | 020 7561 4830

 



“Humanitarian Air Strikes” against Syria:


U.S. Breaks International Law, Again


 




By Alexander Clackson
Global Research, September 24, 2014
Url of this article:
http://www.globalresearch.ca/humanitarian-air-strikes-against-syria-u-s-breaks-international-law-again/5404014

 

The United States, assisted by a handful of Arab nations, conducted air strikes on Syria on 23rd September. The attacks mark a striking expansion in America’s military campaign against the Islamic State in Iraq and Syria (ISIS) and have occurred without the consent of the Syrian government. A U.S. State Department official confirmed that the Syrian government was not asked for authorisation, saying: “We did not seek the regime’s permission, we didn’t coordinate our actions with the Syrian government, and Secretary [of State John] Kerry did not send a letter to the Syrian regime.” The U.S. airstrikes are therefore a clear violation of international law, as Damascus had earlier said that any direct action by the United States within Syria would constitute an act of war and a breach of its sovereignty.

The U.S. administration lawyers have used spurious excuses, invoking Iraq’s right to self-defence and the weakness of the Assad government as twin justifications for U.S. bombing in Syria. However, the fact of the matter is: without United Nations authorisation or approval from the Syrian government, airstrikes on Syria are a violation of basic international law. The legal circumlocutions to avoid requesting a UN Security Council resolution match similar efforts to avoid requesting specific legal authority from the U.S. Congress. Fearing that U.S. politicians up for re-election in November may balk at voting for a third military attack on Iraq and being sucked into a Syrian quagmire, the White House has avoided seeking a fresh authorisation of the use of military force, preferring to rely on early authorisations against al-Qaida granted after the 11 September 2001 attacks.

The President of the Middle East Institute, Yevgeny Satanovsky, summarised succinctly the illegitimacy of the airstrikes, saying: “The fact that Washington has notified Syria’s UN envoy of air strikes against militants’ positions in the territory of Syria does not change anything. Aggression will be aggression. The UN Security Council’s resolution 2170 of August 15 envisaged creation of a basis for a collective international response to the threat from the Islamic State that has emerged in Iraq and Syria, but gave Washington no right to use force against a sovereign country.”

It is important to note that recent testimony by US intelligence and homeland security officials in Washington have acknowledged that Syrian groups such as Isis are not known to be planning any direct attacks on the U.S. Thus, in bombing Islamic State targets in Syria, the United States cannot credibly claim that it used force in self-defence or at the request of the Syrian state exercising lawful force to suppress rebellion.

The United States has a vast track record of breaking international law. It did so, for example, in March 1999, when along with its NATO allies it launched an extended bombing campaign in Serbia. In this case also, the United States could not claim it was acting in self-defence. Nor was military action authorised by the UN Security Council. In addition, the U.S. government is making sure not to mention the American invasion of Iraq in 2003, which also rested on erroneous claims of weapons of mass destruction and arguably contributed to its current instability.

As always, American allies have remained silent over this blatant refusal to follow international law. Only Russia has forcefully condemned the illegality of the airstrikes. In its statement, the Russian Foreign Ministry warned: “Any such action can be carried out only in accordance with international law. That implies not a formal, one-sided ‘notification’ of airstrikes but the presence of explicit consent from the government of Syria or a corresponding UN Security Council decision.” Describing the U.S.-led move as a bid to “achieve one’s own geopolitical goals,” the Russian Ministry said the airstrikes would only “exacerbate tensions and further destabilize the situation.”

The point about “achieving one’s own geopolitical goals” is crucial here, as it is highly likely that the U.S. administration is once again on a mission to carry out another regime chance, with President Bashar al-Assad being the main target.

As the United States and its allies continue to lecture other states on international law and respecting sovereignty, once again the preacher has become the main violator of what is being preached. It looks like the hypocritical nature of the United States knows no bounds.

Alexander Clackson is the founder of Global Political Insight, a political media and research organisation. He has a Master’s degree in International Relations. Alexander works as a political consultant and frequently contributes to think-tanks and other media outlets.

 

 

 



'a prediction' by John Bellamy


The USA wants civil unrest. Through police brutality, airport security abuse, local governmnent, corporate abuse major financial abuse through the banks & politicians,  the government is driving the innocent people to stand up for change and to take to the streets and to cause civil unrest because of the unwarranted abuse dished out to them from the authorities and this is exactly what the authorities want. They want to then spin this into terrorism and to put the constitution aside and with martial law, take control of the country and marshall all the trouble makers, - the grannies and children, the ordinary innocent men and women, who are just sick of the abuse of government, into Re Education Centres ( 800 FEMA Camps are already open and ready for business ) and this will allow the governments and Corporate / Banking America to plunder and steal - using us to police ourselves as in the Concentration Camps of WW2.  The government will then sanction mass killing and mass domination of the mind, body and soul of the population with re education.  

It has already started.
The FEMA Camps are there and open
Plans have already had 2 rehearsals by th US Government

OUR LEGAL AND MORAL RIGHTS ARE BEING ERODED BY GOVERNMENTS WHO SEE US AS GUILTY UNTIL PROVEN INNOCENT AND AS THE 99% WHO WORK AND PAY FOR THE 1%  TO LIVE IT LUXURY WHILE MILLIONS ARE UNEMPLOYED, HOMELESS AND HUNGRY.

The government doesn't give a fuck.
It's about control. power and wealth.

 
 

 

 

 




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John's comments on whistleblowers

I have huge amounts of respect for these guys and any others who reveal the truth - the awful truth, about what our governments and corporations are doing around the world and the wrong doing and illegal acts, the murder and mayhem caused by their actions, and when exposed, they turn on the whistleblower and use all sorts of spin and lies and misinformation to damn and destroy in the face of the public, the very person who is trying to expose these outragous acts that we - the public - would / are outraged about;-   when it is the government who should be hiding its head in utter and complete shame.

Good for these guys and I sincerely hope Edward Snowden gets away from the US trying to track him down and that Bradley Manning gets his action heard by the masses and gets the correct reward he deserves and not the outragous and disgusting treatment the USA has metred out to him so far.

A democracy - when talking about the United States of America, this is not a word we think of.  This nation of bullies, even of its own people, will kill, murder, destroy and plunder anyone and anything to get exactly what it wants and it thinks NOTHING AT ALL ABOUT MURDERING ITS OWN PEOPLE - INNOCENT PEOPLE and hunt those it claims are guilty of espionage even when the wrong doing is at the hands of the government and NOT the whistleblower who simply told the world what is going on behind their backs.

I ABSOLUTELY SALUTE THESE MEN & WOMEN & OTHERS LIKE THEM
My door will always be open for them.

John Bellamy

 




THESE MEN AND WOMEN ARE HEROES

 

 



Remember who 'YOU' are©


By Christopher Charles

(One of my neighbours here at Hamilton Hall)

"Have you ever though there might be more to life?
Have you ever thought of the trouble and strife?
Have you ever thought you don't need a wife?
in this system that tells YOU what is right.

Have you ever thought that black could be white
Have you ever wanted dark to be light
Have you ever wished that wrong was right
to stop the arguing and end the fight.

Well yes.....guess what..? You're not alone
cos a mate'o'mine just heard on the phone
that an awakening is happening on this planet...your home.
Its such a good reason to have a moan

So put pen to paper and air your views
make a banner and get on the news,
have regular meetings...invite your crews
for this is the awakening...you know what to do

For this has been predicted through space and time
that the people will end up...not towing the line
and without the state...we'll be just fine
from the 1% and their hidden crimes.

The banks are corrupt
The leaders out of touch
The BBC is weird
and the planets burning up.

So we vote a change...cos we think it matters
we get a different group of mad hatters
or ask for new laws to cover the doors
of the apparent cause,  to all the flaws
.
The government will not like us
on the streets with loud hailers and banners
we shout "make some new laws for these cheating scammers"
but we don't realise we are voting for laws that will hit us as well...like a row of angry hammers.

'Cos we all want change...but asking's not right
We must spread our wings if we really want flight
and not get caught up in their two party fight
Make up your own mind...don't believe the hype

You cant stop wars by bombing for peace
That's like trying to fuck for virginity at least
and when we ask for laws on hateful speech
we take away the freedom of each

So stop being offended of what people say
Its only because YOU hear it that way
Sticks and stones and come what may
Support freedom of speech everyday

So how do we make a new world for the better
I'll tell ya....I'll go through it letter for letter

Turn off your tellys and put on your wellies
'cos growing your own food is where its at.

Remove the fluoride from your diet
Its only there to keep you quiet

Get to know your neighbours and others around
and you'll soon find ...they're all quite sound.

Recognise the difference between statute and law
and the word UNDERSTAND.......it means much more.

For the acts are not real...they come from the sea
they were not meant for you and me.
It's all maritime law....it's corporate rules
and I'm sorry to say ...we have all been fooled.
There are very few laws for women and men
no harm....no loss...no damage...that's them
It's just a game...the game of life
you count yourself in when you use the dice,
and the dice is your name........
I'm watching you frown
For your names property of the Crown

BE FREE
Remember who you are."


© Hamilton Hall Promotions / Christopher Charles  CT13012013


 


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13/01/2013

 

 

 

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CLICK ON THE PICTURE ABOVE

and learn all about INDECT

and watch the 6 minute video to the very end

THIS IS ABOUT YOUR FUTURE AND YOUR

PRIVACY AND SECURITY FROM THE STATE


 



 



It all sounds so innocent and so ' for your benefit'

but the sad truth
is so very dangerous and different

to what they claim


It states that this could be sold to companies and corporate bodies

who have absolutely no right, as far as I am concerned,

spying on people. That is not for national security -

that is not for the protection of the masses -

that is all about control.


 





 

 



 

 

 


MARIJUANA & THE HEALTH BENEFITS - WAYSEERS MANIFESTO

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Marijuana frequently gets a bad rap. How much of it is deserved? After my earlier blog, “Should Marijuana Be Legalized?” I conducted research to find out the benefits and problems linked with marijuana use. While there are many, here are ten of the health benefits attributed to marijuana and, of course, some of the problems linked to its use:

Alzheimer’s—Marijuana may be able to slow the progression of Alzheimer’s disease, according to research by the Scripps Research Institute and published in Molecular Pharmaceutics.

AnxietyHarvard Medical School found that marijuana may have anti-anxiety effects. Of course, keep in mind that high doses may increase anxiety and paranoia.

Arthritis—Marijuana can alleviate pain and inflammation linked to arthritis.

Cancer—Research in the journal Molecular Cancer Therapeutics found that cannabidiol found in marijuana, turns off a gene called “Id-1,” which cancer cells use to spread.

Epilepsy—Marijuana has been shown in studies by Virginia Commonwealth University, to stop seizures in the school’s animal studies.

GlaucomaResearchers are working on developing new drugs based on cannabis to treat glaucoma pain after learning its effectiveness for treating the condition. Glaucoma is a condition that increases pressure inside the eyeball and can lead to vision loss.

Improves Lung Health—Research in the Journal of the American Medical Association found that marijuana can increase lung capacity, not decrease it as many people have long believed.

Multiple Sclerosis—A study published in the Canadian Medical Association Journal found that cannabinoids found in marijuana significantly reduced multiple sclerosis pain.

Nausea—Marijuana contains a minimum of 60 chemicals known as cannabinoids, of which THC is the primary one associated with its mind-altering effects.  THC has been used in the treatment of nausea, including drug- or chemotherapy-induced nausea.

Parkinson’s Disease—Research published in MedPage Today found that marijuana use eased tremors and improved fine motor skills in patients with Parkinson’s disease.

 

Problems Linked with Marijuana Use:

Addiction—that’s a fairly obvious one. Also, it can cause uncomfortable withdrawal symptoms in people who discontinue use.

Comment from JB:  Marijuana is non addictive - the tobacco you mix it with is the danger,  not the dope.

Anxiety and Paranoia—In high doses or in sensitive individuals, marijuana can cause anxiety and paranoia.

Comment from JB:  In tests - it was found that under 5% of people who smoke marijuana suffer from pananoia and this is usually because the person already had dsigns on mental health and the dope was the key. It is NOT common amongst regular smokers who have smoked for years.

Memory Impairment—As anyone who’s ever talked to someone who is high knows, memory impairment is common.

Mind-Altering Effects—This is particularly evident among people who haven’t used it before as well as many young people.

Comment from JB:  Just like booze or stress or prescription drugs - sometimes you can get an extra strong marijuana which can be a bit trippy,  just like some alcoholic substanbces which are quite legal.

 

Heart Attack—One study found an increase risk of heart attack within the first hour of smoking marijuana.


If you think severe sentencing laws are doing more harm than good,

consider signing this Care2.com
petition.

 


Read more: http://www.care2.com/greenliving/shocking-health-benefits-of-marijuana.html#ixzz39nQe2se3

 



'YOU NEED TO LOVE YOURSELF' - IS SUCH BULLSHIT


Does anyone else cringe upon hearing statements like,

“You need to love yourself before you can  land a job, a relationship, lasting inner peace - etc.” ?

 



I do, and I call it bullshit.  It might be correct in the bigger scheme of things, but here in the real world, it can be very hard and somewhat unrealistic at times.

Sure, liking yourself is important. Believing in yourself, trusting yourself to generally do right by your own best interests. Acting with integrity. Setting boundaries. Respecting yourself enough to know how you deserve to be treated and how others deserve to be treated by you in return and striving to settle for nothing but this,  is often hard. 

But the conditional “if/then” formulas in the self-help-sphere drive me absolutely bonkers. The Personal Development Police would like to have you believe that you have to high-jump over the impossible-to-reach SELF-LOVE bar in order to truly manifest what you want, when the truth is it is so much easier than you can ever imagibe - it is just that we constantly get in our own way.

I find those that give bland advice ' Oh you need to learn some self love' annoying,  unrealistic and frustrating —  it is good advice but also bad advice, no matter how well-intentioned. At least for me. You might disagree with me, and that’s fine. If you are born with unfailing radiant self-love at max capacity 24/7, I am thrilled for you! Bottle it up and sell it, baby!

But for the rest of us mere mortals, self-love is a spectrum, and there‘s a good chance it varies every day. Particularly when you are riding the roller coaster of holding down a job,   or a new relationship or quitting your job or any other massive life change that will cause stress and anxiety. 

Who really loves themselves all day every day, romancing their reflection with flowers and unicorns and affirmations in the mirror every morning?

Listen — I certainly don’t think you want to actively shoot yourself down (put-downs, berating, etc) but can we agree to a more neutral zone?

I do not believe self-love is black or white — you love yourself or you don’t.

Just do the best with what you’ve got, and admit when terrifying, thrilling, vulnerability-inducing situations bring out your shy, insecure, or worry sides. Hallelujah, you‘re alive! And you’re most likely hot on the trail of something exciting.

Try This: I Love Myself Enough

Here‘s my take: do things. Do things that scare you, and watch your confidence build.

Instead of reaching for an unshakeable self-love bar you can never hit, sit with the idea that “I love myself enough. It might not be 100%, but I love myself enough to give this a shot. To be vulnerable, and to take one small brave step each day.”

The best way you can truly love yourself (blegh, the term still gives me hives!) is to give yourself permission to do or say whatever is authentically on your mind, and to start right from where you already are.

Action is what moves you forward. Action is what builds your confidence. Action is the best teacher.

As my favorite Joan Baez quote goes, “Action is the antidote to despair.“

 

 


 

 



WAYSEERS MANIFESTO




ATTENTION: All you rule-breakers, you misfits & troublemakers, all you free-spirits & pioneers...
Everything the establishment has told you is wrong with you - is actually what's right with you...


A friend showed me this last night and I was awe struck by the power and the meaning in the words. 

Watch the video here - but most important -

LISTEN TO THE WORDS

It speaks to the heart of all those Light Workers
and those working for a higher cause -

Those who know there IS a Higher Cause
and those seekers of the TRUTH.





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WATCH IT HERE


BUT MOST IMPORTANT - LISTEN TO THE WORDS.


I found this the most powerful piece I think I have ever heard and it moved me deeply.
I urge you to listen with your eyes shut - ignore the video for the first hearing, and just throw yourself into the message

Thanks to Chris who introduced me to this


 

 

Here are the words below :-
 By Garret John LoPorto on September 22, 2010

 


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ATTENTION: All you rule-breakers, you misfits and troublemakers -

all you free spirits and pioneers - all you visionaries and non-conformists




Everything that the establishment has told you is wrong with you - is actually what's right with you.

You see things others don't. You are hardwired to change the world. Unlike 9 out of 10 people - your mind is irrepressible - and this threatens authority. You were born to be a revolutionary.

You can't stand rules because in your heart you know there's a better way.

You have strengths dangerous to the establishment - and it wants them eliminated, So your whole life you've been told your strengths were weaknesses - Now I'm telling you otherwise.

Your impulsivity is a gift - impulses are your key to the miraculous,

Your distractibility - is an artifact of your inspired creativity,

Your mood swings - reflect the natural pulse of life, they give you unstoppable energy when you're high and deep soulful insight when you're low,

Been diagnosed with a "disorder"? That's society's latest way to deny it's own illness by pointing the finger at you.

 


Your addictive personality is just a symptom of your vast underused capacity for heroic, creative expression and spiritual connection. your utter lack of repression, your wide eyed idealism, your unmitigated open mind - didn't anyone ever tell you?!

These are the traits shared by the greatest pioneers and visionaries and innovators, revolutionaries, procrastinators and drama queens, activists on the social scene, space cadets and mavericks, philosophers and derelicts, business suits flying fighter jets, football stars and sex addicts, celebrities with ADD, alcoholics who seek novelty, first responders - prophets and saints, mystics and change agents.

We are - all - the same - you know

'cuz we're all affected by the way -
We are - all - the same - you know
'cuz we're all attracted to the flame -
You know in your heart that there's a natural order to life,
something more sovereign than any man-made rules or laws could ever express

This natural order is called "the Way."

 


The Way is the eternal substrate of the cosmos. It guides the very current of time and space. The Way is known by some as the Will of God, Divine Providence, the Holy Spirit, the implicate order, the Tao, reverse-entropy, life-force, but for now we'll simply call it "the Way."

The Way is reflected in you as the source of your inspiration, the source of your passions, your wisdom, your enthusiasm, your intuition, your spiritual fire - love.

The Way takes the chaos out of the Universe and breathes life into it by reflecting divine order. The Way, when experienced by the mind, is genius, when perceived through the eyes is beauty, when felt with the senses is grace, when allowed into the heart ... is love.

Most people cannot sense the Way directly. ... But then there are the Wayseers. The keepers of the flame. Wayseers have an unexplainable knack for just knowing the Way.
They sense it in their very being. They can't tell you why or how they arrived at the right answer. They just know it in their core. They can't show their work. So don't ask. Their minds simply resonate with the Way. When the Way is present, so are they.

While others are blind to it, and society begs you to ignore it, "the Way" stirs you inside. Neurological repression blocks most people's awareness of the Way - censoring all thoughts and impulses from the unconscious is their prefrontal cortex - the gestapo of the brain -  nothing which violates its socialized programming even gets through; but your mind is different. your mind has been cracked wide open to the Way - by some miraculous genetic trait, some psychotropic chemical or maybe even by the will of your very soul, your brain's reward pathways have been hijacked - dopamine employed to overthrow the fascist dictatorship of your prefrontal cortex - now your brain is free of repression, your mind free of censorship, your awareness exposed to the turbulent seas of the unconscious - through this open doorway divine light shines into your consciousness showing you the Way. This is what makes you a Wayseer.

90% of human civilization is populated with those who's brains are blocked to the Way.  Their brains are hardwired to enforce the social programming indoctrinated since birth.
Unlike you they cannot break out of this programming, because they have not yet experienced the necessary revolution of mind. These programmed people take social institutions and rules very seriously. Society is full of games programmed to keep peoples' minds occupied so they will not revolt.

These games often cause sick fixations on peculiar protocols, power structures, taboos and domination - all subtle forms of human bondage - This distinct form of madness is not only tolerated by the masses but insisted upon. The programmed ones believe in rules so forcefully they become willing to destroy anyone who violates them.

Wayseers are the ones who call their bluff.  Since Wayseer minds are free to reject social programming, Wayseers readily see social institutions for what they are - imaginary games.  
Wayseers comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable.
Helping those who are lost in these games and refuse to help themselves is a calling of many Wayseers.

Since Wayseers are the ones who keep contact with the original source of reality - they are able to disrupt societal conventions and even governments to realign humanity with the Way.

The Wayseers are an ancient lineage. A kind of priesthood - carriers of the flame - ones "in the know."  There must always be Wayseers to reform the dizzying psychotic spinning gears of society - giant mindless hamster wheels obscuring the pure blue sky, keeping humanity shackled in a darkened cage - so Wayseers are called - to shed light on the madness of society - to continually resurrect the timeless transcendent Spirit of Truth -

Wayseers reveal this divine truth by devoting themselves to the birth of some creative or disruptive act expressed through art or philosophy, innovations to shake up industry, revolutions for democracy, coups that topple hypocrisy, movements of solidarity, changes that leave a legacy, rebellions against policy, spirit infused technology, moments of clarity, things that challenge barbarity, watersheds of sincerity, momentous drives for charity


We are - all - the same - you know

'cuz we're all affected by the way -

We are - all - the same - you know

'cuz we're all attracted to the flame -

This is your calling, Wayseer

You've found your tribe.

Welcome home.



 

 





 

 


andy pryor

Died Sunday August 19th 2012 - aged, I think 43.

and you know what,  I don't think I have a picture of him - after a computer crash a few years ago where thousands of photos were lost, and now all I have is my memory - that picture in my head.


I first met Andy when he joined a group I was runnning called 'The Gay Spiritual Group' in London, and this would be around 1996-97. He was instantly a keen member  and quickly  joined the committee to help with the running of the group.  Once a month we hosted a Social  and would get anything up to 65 members in my London home and a really good spiritual evening would be had,  relaxed and informal,  with people just talking and laughing,   and at around 9pm I would introduce a speaker for 30 minutes or so, and one of these evenings,  Andy wanted to give a talk about an  experience he had recently had.
He was really nervous and with a little encouragement from me - he stood and introduced himself and gave a wonderful, lighthearted account of a recent trip to Egypt that had changed his life,  and it was a really lovely thing to be a part of and to hear this London cockney lad - offering such a  gentle story. 

For Andy was a little Tough Ted... an east end lad you might not - at one time - have trusted  with your wallet or car keys - as he had been a cheeky little rascall when he was a teenager and in private he would tell me some of the things he had got up to in the past which while illegal,   did make you smile broadly and laugh out loud... and while you felt for the victim who had had their car stolen - or whatever - it was never meant to be malicious or evil,  it was just lads messing about,  and we would laugh.  But all that was years behind him and he donated a great deal of his time to helping others, through voluntary charity work and in his private life as well,  and he was a very thoughtful and kind, considerate and loving man.

When I moved to Hamilton Hall he would come down and help us paint and decorate - or more often - he would actually bring a friend with him who he paid to do the work for him as his disabilities through various illnesses brought about through his HIV made it difficult for him to do some things physically,  and he was thrilled every time to be able to offer something and happy to be a part of Hamilton Hall, and I was very pleased to have him part of my life.

I remember one long hot summer, maybe around 2004 - he was down for a couple of weeks with his dog - a Doberman named Scooby ( naturally )  and we would sit in the garden until late at night with candles lit all over the place and just chill out and laugh and share stories from our past - as we actually had a lot in common - and these are happy memories.  His cheecky chappy grin and laugh won him many friends here and one elderly friend fell madly in love with him;- in a really nice and sweet way - and every time I mentioned Andy to him he would smile broadly and laugh...

I knew his health was up and down over the years and I would always be inviting him down for a free stay and more often than not, he would either come down or be too busy at home,  and all of a sudden he has having problems with his bowels and had already had an operation giving him a temporary colostomy and when he visited he was so up, so cheerful and so positive, he was such an inspiration even though I think he was going through a great deal. 

During a trip to Egypt where the pain became so great he increased his pain medication, he decided upon return to just tell the doctors to take his bowel right out and give him a full colostomy as he could not live with the pain and it was obviously not getting any better,  and this was done almost immediately.  He laughed about not needing to douch any more and was so positive all through it.  But it seems things went from bad to worst and although he was always up-beat when I phoned,  he eventually moved into a hospice - he said for pain management - but within a couple of weeks his phone was switched off and he had died.  A few days later his sister called and told me the news and as soon as she said she was Andy's sister, I knew - for I had had to go through my own sisters phone book years ago after her death - phoning people and telling them - and I just knew.  Instantly my tummy did a flip,  my heart missed a beat and a tear came to my eye.  Poor Andy, I wish he'd let me know how ill he was, I would have visited him in the hospice,  but I think he didn't want a fuss - didn't want people to see him in those last days and wanted us to remember him as he was,  and he left this world peacefully and as he had lived it , on his own terms.

He also chose not to have a funeral service of any kind,  and the family were to be told - after the fact - that he had been cremated by the funeral company after it was all over.  Some would have a hard time with this - as saying your final farewell in front of a coffin is traditional and what we all expect,  but not when it causes such grief for people.  Andy hated fuss,  and so chose to leave this life as quietly as he could and leave happy memories and not grief in his wake.  

No flowers.

No hymns. 
No getting to the place on time and having to wear something black - which he would have hated and no
eulogy describing his life in nine minutes.

I was upstairs late last night with a friend and Andy and I had always shared a cigarette or two together and evenings just talking and laughing,  so I did just that with Matt who works here and we shared a few smokes,  talked about loads of things including Andy - and just had one of those evenings where we were giggling like school girls...  and all the while aware of Andy and how he would have loved to be with us one last time,  and bless him. 

Getting older for me is fun,  I see so much of other older people in myself as I come closer to my 60's - people who are older than I am and now I am catching them up,  and the one sadness is remembering all the sweet people whose lives have come to an end so much younger and so much sooner,  and it makes me sad.  I know there are always new friends to meet,  new faces to  laugh with and new evenings to share a smoke and a giggle and I give thanks for the ever changing aspect of my daily life and the wonderous way it moves through the years,  and there are times I remember back and see a face in my minds eye - of Andy - or someone else I held dear but probably never got the chance to really tell them how important they were to me,  and I try harder with my 'today friends' to let them know how much I care and love them, and as fast and as busy as my days are,  I always remember and keep their memory alive within my mind, my body and my soul and in this,  they are still with me.  Still alive and still making me smile.   For I don't ever want to forget.


Bless you Andy.

This is a piece of music he enjoyed and is to be played in the chapel.  CLICK HERE

 

 

 


EU PLAN TO BAN SEEDS / LIVING IN CARGO CONTAINERS

Posted by: John

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John

 


EU TRYING TO BAN HOME GROWN SEEDS

The EU is trying to control the saving, swapping and sowing of seeds, by introducing the “Regulation on the Marketing of Plant Reproductive Material”. Small farmers and gardeners all over Europe could be coerced into giving up their age old practice of saving seed, and be forced to buy EU approved and patented seed each year.


If allowed to pass the “Plant Reproductive Material Law” it will be illegal to grow, reproduce, or trade any vegetable seed or tree that has not been tested and approved by the EU Plant Variety Agency. The new law basically puts the government in charge of all plants and seeds in Europe, and prevents home gardeners from growing their own plants from non-regulated seeds. If they did, they would now be considered criminals.

The Real Seed Catalogue has warned about this tyrannical law and the business interests behind it. They say that under this bad law, “It costs nearly £3000 to test & register just one single variety of seed for sale“:

This law will immediately stop the professional development of vegetable varieties for home gardeners, organic growers and small scale market farmers. Home gardeners have really different needs – for example they grow by hand, not machine, and can’t or don’t want to use such powerful chemical sprays. 

There’s no way to register the varieties suitable for home use as they don’t meet the strict criteria of the Plant Variety Agency, which is only concerned about approving the sort of seed used by industrial farmers.
 


Please contact your MEP and tell them what you think.

The next European election will be on the 22nd May 2014.
 


Comment by JB
I have written to all the MEP's that are current for my area and told them I hope they will vote against this madness as that is exactly what this is - absolute madness - and if nothing else - it is enough to make me want to leave the EU.

 

 

 

 

 


NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE -

THE MOST BIZARRE THING EVER...


Last night, a guest had not arrived at the time we had been advised (between 7 and 8pm ) and the phone number I had  for him was obviously incorrect as it would not connect, ) so as he had not phond, I eventually went to bed and forgot all about him.  
At 1.50am the door bell rang and rang and rang and it was him,  hardly apologetic at all and kept saying he got lost. I asked where he had come from - Manchester - which is such an easy journey to Bournemouth, and I bluntly asked why he had not thought to phone enroute if he was lost and he just said he was driving - and when  I mentioned he could have pulled over and rang me he just said nothing, and I was displeased.  No apology just an excuse.

So I showed him to the dorm  ( the cheapest room in the house which he had booked  and luckily there was no one else in there to disturb at that time )  and left him - and I offered no small talk or chit chat at all.

This irritated me as I then couldn't get back to sleep - but did so and 2 hours later, while asleep on top of the covers because it was a warm night, I was suddenly awoken by someone stroking my legs up to my cock- in the dark, and while it awoke me instantly - the stroker was unaware of this. I froze.  
The hands went onto my cock which was as hard as a board as I had awoken with a stiffy, and this person then started sucking on it, and my mind was racing trying to figure out who the hell this was...  So after a minute or so, he climbed up onto me and tried to insert my dick up his ass and at this point I awoke a bit more, reached for the light and told him to fuck off - but he just laid on the bed with his butt in the air expecting me to fuck him,  but as I was not about to bare back him - and as I was not about to fuck him regardless, I told him to go to bed. I got up and pushed him away from me - and yes you guessed it - it was my late night arrival -  and I was firm in telling him to bugger of.  

He reluctantly went down stairs.

I lay in bed appreciating the fantasy - because there is a fantasy to be had here, but he just was not my type at all, not even vaguely, and while he wanted to get fucked and I could have well enjoyed a late night fuck, I was not about to give him the pleasure of my big dick up his ass and I was not amused or pleased so was not about to give him fuck all.


I have no idea what he was on, what cheek, what drugs, what delusion he was harbouring under that let him think this kind of behaviour was acceptable and what others might think with him waking them in the night for sex,  especially as he had passed a PRIVATE sign on the stairs which means just as it says yet he saw fit to ignore this,  and it leaves me open mouthed.  For a start, I do not fancy orientals and I don't like tiny tiny willies ( which I briefly saw as I pushed him off ) and I most certainly do not like pushy people.
Now I appreciate that there is a part of me that knows that  had he been more my type;- had he been Hugh Jackman for instance, I might have fucked the ass of him for hours and had a great time,  and that this is double standards.  I am not adverse to a little late night nookie surprising me,  but the one thing I despise is arrogance and attitude, and this guy never once offered an apology for being late - he then assumed it was okay to creep around the hotel - probably trying every door until he found one unlocked ( mine ) and open ( so I can hear in case the alarms go off in the night ) and presumably I was not the first room he tried finding a fuck in... so not a real compliment.  And besides, his cock sucking skills - all 30 seconds of it, was useless,- not a bloody clue -  absolute crap, and if you are going to walk into someones room in the night and surprise them with your mouth around their cock, at least know how to suck cock and be decent about it and for goodness sake,  have some idea of what you are doing.

Sadly for him, he didn't.

So as I have a Late Arrival Charghe on my web site - which I have never had to use before, he was charged an extra £50 this morning for waking me at nearly 2am and when I see him later today, he WILL be told, inm no uncertain terms, what I think of his behaviour and attitude and he WILL be reprimanded and told some facts of life about decent behaviour.

 

 





 

 

 

 


KRISTIAN WANTED BY THE POLICE

Posted by: John

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John



KRISTIAN JAMES

WANTED BY THE POLICE


February 2011


IF YOU KNOW THE WHEREABOUTS OF

DAFFYD KRISTIAN JAMES





who worked at Hamilton Hall from December 2008 - January 2011

CONTACT THE POLICE BELOW


BUT NOT IF YOU JUST WANT TO
FIND OUT WHAT HE HAS DONE
 

 



Please call Police Constable 2557 TRENT -

Incident / Reference number C:11:C:8746 -

on 01202/01305 22 22 22 

or e mail her on 

Kathryn.trent@dorset.pnn.police.uk


otherwise e mail  John Bellamy on

gaymen@hamiltonhall.info

 


Since Kristian left us because the police were catching up with him, I have had loads of phone calls and e mails from those who have been burned by him over the years and it seems he is not just an opportunistic thief - who sees an opportunity and grabs it - but someone who has made a career out of stealing, lying and manipulating people and it has brought much sadness, grief and heartache to those he has conned.  Stealing money from a man who was ill with PCP and on deaths door is dreadful. Conning an old lady out of her life savings is unthinkable.  Stealing charity money while pretending to have cancer - leaves me speachless. I truly thought better of him than this and it is sad that after experiencing him,  it leaves you distrusting and questioning everyones motives - which is sad - and like everyone else before me,  I am sad for Kristian. 

Like many, I do miss Kristian, even for all his lies and cheating ways. he has a heart of gold when it suits him and he is the kindest and most thoughtful man I have met in a long time and I don't care to think that all his kindness was just a way of getting around me, gaining my trust and friendship so he could con me.  I care to think that somewhere inside this man,  is a caring soul who is just caught in a trap and cannot find an exit, even though I honestly offered to help him,  he still ran and out of fear, has never looked back.

He is such a bright, intelligent, presentable and hard working man that he could have the best job - earning a lot of money - and have friends and respect - instead of the loathing, the hatred and the bile filled words that I have read from others on e mail.  He could have it all, and all through his time here at hamilton Hall he was desperate - absolutely desperate - for friends and respect and worked so hard at befriending others - and bullshitting us about how everyone loved and adored him and made up such stories about his life and background that  always proved to be false - and it saddens me that  the people who did be friend him and he became close to -   he  ended up stealing  from them.   Find out their weak points - who had money - who had anything - he could steal - and to have absolutely no conscience - no guilt, no remorse and no feelings at all for those he has harmed,  sends a very sad and pathetic message about how this man doesn't understand the basic - the most basic - of things - LOVE. 
His family seem to have disowned him.  Friends last as long as he is in town and before he is back on the run again with the police after him and friends left in shock and horror at what he has done, and I am desperately sorry for all concerned.


I have thought many times since Kristian vanished about deleting this page on my web site,  but then I hear in my head the pain and anguish in peoples conversations with me on the phone - since Kristian vanished and since I let it be known what he had done - from others who had been stung by him,  and that alone keeps this page on this web site.   One man is so destroyed that he cannot get on with his life as he doesn't know who he can trust,  and this is a common thread from many who have been 'taken in' by Kristian and now feel very hurt and betrayed. 
Yet I cannot fathom why he has allowed this to be a way of life.  he is a wonderful man who could really be in a good well paid job,  and he has no one to blame but himself.  It is such a shame, especially as I offered him a way out but he could noit accept it as it meant telling me thr truth and - to be honest - I think he is unaware of what the truth is any more - or certainly - afraid of his own truths, and is so caught up in the Walter Mitty - that as he gets older, he will find it harder and harder.

I feel desperately sorry for everyone concerned.  Including Kristian.
He was certainly my best worker - ever.

 


Until proven guilty in a court of law - even though I have evidence and a confession from Kristians own lips that he stole from me,  all this is conjective until proven in court. It seems his rights are more protected in law than those he robbed from and his human rights are paramount above his victims.  The law is an ass and the police have done precious little in finding him as he is a low priority case - and as usual, the victim is offered little respect and I was even told off by the police women above for actually putting this on my web site - but as they are doing nothing to find him, I shall continue with this in the hope that someone - somewhere - will read this, see him, and get him facing his accusers in a court of law so these people can have closure.


The human rights of the victim seems to come second to those of the person who has abused them.  As far as I am concerned, as soon as a thief picks up a brick to throw through my window to rob my home :-  As soon as a mugger spots a victim and takes ain :- As soon as anyone puts in motion any kind of illegal act against another - THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS SHOULD COME SECOND TO THE VICTIM - WHO DID NOT ASK TO BE ROBBED, RAPED, MUGGED ETC.  and the manner - all too often,  that the legal authorities offer the victim is second rate compared to the rights of the criminal.  Too many times the victim is left with a life of fear because not only have they been abused by a bad person,  they have been abuse dby the very system that is suppose to protect them.

 

 


My Mother, Betty.

Posted by: John

Tagged in: personal

John

 



My Mother died 21st September 2011

by John Bellamy


Like a lot of you out there, I have a Mother  who moved from her warden assisted flat to a nursing care home as her mental and physical health meant she was no longer able to look after herself any longer, and there were many times when it made my heart weep. I was talked out of looking after her in my  home and while my heart desperately wanted to look after her,  my head told me I would not manage and it was not a good idea.

A while ago she had a bladder infection and she was in bed and  very distressed - staring out of unseeing eyes that did not seem to focus,  grabbing with her hands at anything and everything close - ie: the bars at the side of the hospital bed had been put up to keep her in bed as she kept sliding out and staggering up the ward - and it was quite a distressing site for many to witness - and she was chattering away - with words that did not follow any cohesive sense and while she knew my name and - kind of - that I was her son -  all sorts of other family members names came into it and I don't really think she knew me,   Her confused state was sad to witness. 



My Mother - a bright, intelligent fashion model who was one of London's top models in the 1940's  and 1950's and walked the catwalk,   also sang with many famous dance bands,  for she had a superb voice - and who raised 3 children,  was reduced to this. 

A tall proud women with a voice and an opinion of her own and no fear of speaking her mind,- a woman who was married 3 times during her life and who put up with a lot,-   A woman who had lived alone for over 20 years since her 3rd husband - my Step Father died and who lost her only daughter ( my sister ) and her baby ( my niece ) around 20 years ago when both died a few months apart ,-  A women who has always been accepting of my gay lifestyle and who loved my friends and boyfriends totally,   even if not being as accepting of my brothers wife - always being a dreadful mother-in-law and a women who all those 'mother-in-law jokes'  must have been written about,-  And a woman who was stubborn, difficult and sometimes a women who would make the angels cry because GOD she could NEVER admit fault and take responsibility and simply apologize,   and a woman who has caused much family turmoil because of her refusal - point blank refusal - to ever accept that she was ever wrong about anything - And a woman who admitted to me some years ago that she had never been in love - never really knew what love was and that - despite being married 3 times and raising a family,  had never really understood what that mysterious word 'love' - had meant - and while in her way she has loved and has been loved, she never really comprehended what it meant, and for that, I was always desperately sorry. 

Sorry that she never understood how we - her children - felt about her and sorry that she always felt the need to - somehow - try and manipulate the situation to suit herself all the time.  Sad that she  never realised we would do whatever she wanted because we loved her and not because she was being manipulative.  Sad that she always thought every situation was about her  and sad that she felt such jealously and resentment towards anyone who 'stole her limelight' - even her own grandchildren.  Sad that she resented her son being a sensational husband and father to his children and sad that she felt such resentment towards those who had something she felt she had lost out on, when the truth was - she hadn't - for she was loved - she was very cared for - and while she never understood this and while she felt alone and unloved,  other people were hurt and betrayed by her time and time again because she simply didn't get it.  She never really understood,-  and that saddens me. 

Poor Betty - my poor Mother,  and as much as we have told her over the years and as much as we have openly shown our affection and considered her in our lives - she still never got it - never realised and never allowed herself to be part of the family - preferring to isolate herself and say that she wasn't wanted all the time when the exact opposite was the truth, and we just got fed up with it. 

Towards the end, to see her bedridden and shouting for help all the time,  was not good.   I could have visited more often,  and she understood in her way.

Whatever it was she lost - and whatever it was she lacked - and for all her mistakes and all her selfish ways,  she was my Mother, I love her dearly, and no-one - NO -ONE - should be made to go through the kind of thing at the end of their lives,   and the cruelty metered out by a government and health authority  SO AGAINST EUTHANASIA beggars belief.  My Mother would not have wanted this,  and with a society where 80% of people asked agree that euthanasia is the best thing in some situations such as this,  I know she didn't suffer at the end, which came quite quickly,  and that  she can now be with my sister, her family and Jesus - in peace - which is what she spoke of.

I would tell her that it was okay - she didn't have to keep fighting and being scared - that she could go to Heaven and see Jesus and the family any time she wanted, and that she, and they, would all be young again, that she would be singing once more and surrounded by those who loved her,  and that her Father - who she never knew - would welcome her with open arms - along with Jesus.  She felt reassured with this and while her body outlived her mind -  I know she would not have wanted to live like this.  Some people need permission to 'let go' and find peace, and my Mother hung on in there and died 21st September 2011 aged 89.   She wasn't ill - she wasn't suffering anything more than being bed ridden and with dementia - her body was strong and she just seemed to 'give up' and slipped into unconsciousness and died within an hour, peacefully, and for that I thank God and the Universe.

So my Mother has now become a memory and one I shall treasure always. I shall tell stories, laugh and get angry, and always with love and affection, for while my Mother exasperated us dearly,  she was a character - and strong willed individual and she died how she lived, in her own time and in her own way.  I can hardly believe I will not see her next week or next month, when I visit and I comb her hair and paint her nails and we talk around in circles and --- but like so many people,  life goes on and we will have her cremated and sprinkle her ashes over Evening Hill - a delightful park with a stunning view over Poole and the harbour and at sunset it is simply delightful, and I often visit with friends to enjoy a fish and chip supper from a local takeaway,   and I shall remember her and be thankful that she was my Mother, who I loved dearly.


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