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CONTEMPT FOR THE TRUTH / AM I A TERRORIST ?

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CERTIFICATE OF EXCELLENCE
HAMILTON HALL 2014



I often see these awards and think - well - who voted that the best pub / club / gay venue - as no one asked me and who voted it the best ???   ... and consider it all a load of bollocks to get you to spend more money in their bar.  Trip Advisor;-  while I say they are tossers and a waste of time - this certificate of excellence is an award because of the amount of positive feedback we have received from those who have stayed here and THAT is wonderful and I am proud and thrilled about that.  Compared to many other venues, we could easily be a 3 or 4 star B&B but I do not buy into the tourist board schemes which - again - are just money spinners for the council - and I do not waste my money with something that has such little meaning. 

66% of visitors attend alone.
22% attend  with a partner / friend
6% come on business





 

 


CONTEMPT FOR THE TRUTH

In the paper today ( 16/10/14)  concerning the Mayor of London NOT wanting to ban smoking in parks etc - cancer specialist Lord Ara Darzi claims 8,400 people a year die in London from the effects of smoking while completely ignoring how when a friend of mine died of throat cancer a decade ago, we were told that smoking was the 3rd reason for throat cancer while binge drinking was second and urban living was the biggest cause of throat cancer in the UK and yet this so called cancer specialist chooses to completely ignore this and still ' toe the line' and claim it all to be on smoking.

Nowhere does he state the full and accurate facts and nowhere is booze even mentioned.  This contempt for the truth and contempt for sharing the truth is disgraceful and dishonest.  Maybe Lord Darzi needs to learn the truth or maybe he is just being misled like so many people by a government who hides the truth and shares mistruths and blatant lies.

Where is the health warning on bottles of wine, and it should be the same size as is found on a packet of cigarettes, like 1/3rd the entire size of the carton, and with a picture of a liver diseased with drinking problems... and where is it to be found on cans of beer or bottles of gin ?  It seems that considering the dangers of alcohol are so well known - why is it kept a secret from the public that it is more harmful than smoking and why then,  are the health warnings on packaging so ignored. 

 

 


GMO soy engineered by Monsanto for heavy pesticide exposure has been found in infant formula purchased in Portland, USA, where a huge fight is raging to demand GMO is labelled on the food wrapper so we know what is in our food. ( GM - Genetically Modified )  Meanwhile - Monsanto is ploughing multi millions into the campaign to keep GMO products from being labeled on food and to keep its contents hidden from the public - maybe because they know the vast majority of people do not want GMO food stuff and especially when it is hidden from view in so many products. 
 

 


COMPUTER EXPERT WANTED

I have been so stressed all summer struggling with a computer that although is only  a year old, has always given me major headaches by crashing all the time, deleting stuff I have written and generally messing up and making work for me so long winded and frustrating, I despair.  Time for a new one - and time for someone who is expert and good to assist and take control if and when something goes wrong and who can put it right and not on a temporary basis,  as I already have more work than I can handle and when I waste hours every day trying to run my business with a screwed computer,  it really stresses me out.  So if you are local and wish to help - paid naturally - please get in touch. 01202-399227

 


Christmas and New Year at Hamilton Hall have just a few vacancies open. BOOK NOW.
 


Just had a guest here who I do have such a laugh with and it is always great when this happens. He has been coming for some years and he is very protective of me and Hammy Hall and this means a great deal to me.   He even brought me a case of wine for Christmas - which ' every litle helps'  and is returning for our New Year period ( almost fully booked already ) and I just know we will have such a laugh... 
That's the great thing of running a venue like Hammy Hall, you never know who is going to walk through the front door next, and not juist some random anonymous guest, as no one is ever an anonymous guest here - and to chat and share, giggle and get to know - is wonderful and we do get some interesting and some amazing people here... and I truly believe that everyone has a story and everyone is as interesting when you get to know them.
Love it.

 

 

George W. Bush and Tony Blair were absolutely  right and the Iraq War and the adventure into Afghanistan correct and  good,  so let's have another one - another war of mass destruction and mayhem - because we're all going to be killed by those undocumented ISIS fighters who hate our freedom and have weapons of mass destruction and are in London recruiting young men and women as you read this - right now -  and with the Ebola they will soon be bringing into the country  - we are all going to die anyway.

That's basically the gist of television "journalism" these days, the distilled essence of manufactured hysteria combined with utterly predictable bullshit as spoused by news media like Sky / Fox.  When  you spend ten years indiscriminately dropping bombs abroad, the victims have a way of hating you and hating what you stand for and will want to hit back… and to be honmest I tend to see their point in this - and the lies and bullshit from government, military  and journalists still comes at us full force, even though much is bollocks.

The people spreading this bad noise - politicians and "news" media entities alike - are being well-paid to do so. It furthers their combined agenda to have you climbing the walls in fear as when in fear, we are more controllable.  If we do collapse as a society, it will not be because of Ebola or ISIS or mass immigration taking the jobs no one actually wants anyway -  or anything else. The virus that will end us is stupidity compounded by manufactured fear compounded by the deranged priorities of those who seek to terrorize you and then laugh all the way to the bank.

Take the recent case of Cannabis and the nonesense that has recently been spread through the papers about the dangers and the risks and not one mentions that the dangers of smoking it are from the tobacco - or that alcohol is hugely responsible for the breakdown of relationships, communities, jobs and health and yet where is the health warnings on bottles of gin or cans of beer - and while the government is spending millions ranting the dangers of Cannabis, it chooses to ignore the real danger and use Cannabis as a smoke screen to hide the truth and keep everyone's conscious mind occupied with mistruths and once agin, the truth is hard to find.   

Divide and conquer - mix truth with lies and sit back and watch the people argue the fact from the fiction, and watch the dumb shitheads who believe all they read in the papers, deny any semblance of reality and truth from those who have studied and made it their mission to find the truth,  and the only real victim here - is TRUTH.

Last week we had a guest here who looked completely agasp when we were talking about how 911 was an inside job and not facilitated by the Arabs at all, and he claimed not to have ever heard a single word concerning how we had all been lied to by the United States and how it was all a pre arranged event  and he simply couldn't - or wouldn't believ those of us that were then completely open mouthed at his words.  We were agasp he had never heard even the slightest suggestion of a hidden conspiracy theory and we just stared at him in absolute wonder - much as he was with us in return.  Truth is lost on some and if you repeat the same lie often enough, it does become factual  truth and there are millions who will follow a lie to the grave - BUT NOT ME.

British PM David Cameron: “Non-Violent Extremists” Including “9/11 Truthers”
and “Conspiracy Theorists” are Just as Dangerous as ISIL Terrorists


David Cameron claims there is a  threat to society of what he has called  ‘non-violent extremists’, including those who are attempting to bring forward information and evidence about 9/11 which contradicts the official version of events. Many millions around the world  find this position on 9/11 evidence to be quite incredible and/or implausible.  It is a position that is either extremely ignorant, or it is a position that goes against freedom and democracy in British society to such an extent that it is scarcely believable.  Huge numbers of extremely credible and professional people across the world are now bringing forward incontrovertible facts and evidence showing us that the events of 9/11 have been systematically covered up, and that the public has been deceived and manipulated on this issue at a quite incredible level.  Just like the public was deceived and manipulated about weapons of mass destruction in Iraq and the 45 minute claim. 

Millions do not believe the official claim about what happened on 911, any more than they do the official story about the Boston Bombings or even the Brazilian guy in London who was seen running from the authorities and then killed on an undeground train, and the version of the truth that was given to the public was completely a fat sweaty lie - and when the truth came out - who was prosecuted for blatant lies - who was punnished for misleading the country and who was arrested for murdering an innocent man who walked onto a tube train while the authorities completely fucked it all up from beginning to end, and who lied through their teeth to cover their tracks and hide the truth ?  

Look at how the families of those killed in the Hillsborough disaster have been lied to - mis led and even bullied by the authorities in order to cover up their own absolute and complete incompetance and how the abuse by the authority was compounded by the media :-    and the families - oh how they were made to suffer a million fold by the very people who were paid to offer the truth but instead,  horribly and massively lied and distorted and brought decades of agonising heartbreak to a community already coping with loss of friends and family, including young boys of 14 and 15 years of age and where these ' men in power' made eronious claims that the youths were drunk and they simply made things up about the dead to save their own sorry arses. 

It makes me want to puke.

Truth - it seems - when it comes to the authorities, is in short supply and the only people who suffer,  is you and me - the public - who teach our children to be honest, and we expect the same from those in positions of power, and yet every single time - we are lied to and blatantly ' in your face' accused of being a ' non violent extremist' by our Prime Minister - and this sickens me to the very core.

If  David Cameron is going to claim I am  as dangerous as ISIL or an extremist because I do not believe the official truths given on so many ' terrorist' claims by our government,  then maybe the police would have a field day if every single person who did not believe the official claim,  walked into their local police station and handed themselves in as guilty extremists,  and just see what happens when millions are queing outside police stations up and down the country.

Truth, is seems, is hard to come by from officialdome and one wonders what kind of example this sets our young - and I simply do not believe much what is shared through the media these days and as for going into another war with America - ARE WE MAD.
  There may be a semblance of truth,  but sadly we cannot trust the levels at which our government and the United States will go to in order to hide the truth and just do what they want - for whatever reasons - and we the people, will continue to be lied to and kept in ignorance.

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Your opinions on this article are invited, as usual.
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John: I was astounded at the level in which you wrote your piece called TRUTH in your recent Blog. Wow, I was not expecting something as hard hitting but goodness, I completely agreed with you and found myself nodding and saying yes - yes - yes all the way through. Robin.
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John. I believe that Marilyn Monroe was really a tranvestite. Does that make me a terrorist ?  Rob. ( New York )
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John: Good to read your thing on Truth in your blog. Good to actually read something that is true.  I also was shocked to be called a Non Violent Extremist by our own prime Minister and shocked that if we did not tow the line and believe every word offered by the government then we were terrorists ?  How shocking is that ?  Well done on sharing this with us on your blog. Top marks to you John. Robers ( London )
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So many people  believe that 911 was an ' inside job' done by the USA istelf, that there is even an advert on this billboard in Times Square to get peoples attention to this truth.  WATCH IT HERE
 

 


John: I notice you are offering some mixed men and women weekends at Hamilton Hall. As a men only venue, how come ? Rob.

Well Rob, I see you have not stayed at Hamilton hall - from your e mail address - in 4 years - and we do not survive financially and we really do struggle here and unless we are supported more,  we will be forced to close, and then you will have comment.  These occasional mixed events are - hopefully - going to help bring in some much needed income and even if just 2 or 3 events a year, like a private booking - where it is not available for those who want a men only venue and there is always the rest of the year for you to enjoy,  and we do this in order to stay open.
If you can suggest or even offer to promote and facilitate, a weekend workshop, seminar or just lazy weekend and fill the venue with paying guests, then I shall be all ears to your suggestion and help offered, but as it all comes down to me and no one else and I do run out of ideas or have what I think is a good ides that flops ( as this may ) then I do what I can do in order to stay open. Period.

 

 


STREISAND ( aaahhh.....  love her..... )


It's official - Barbra Streisand's
Partners has entered the Billboard 200 chart at #1, making her the only recording artist in history to have a number one release in six consecutive decades!

Some might think this a little ' too gay ' but fuck'em.  I have loved Streisand since I was 16 years of age and bought every album, saw every film and TV interview and saw her live in concert 3 times and even went to the Royal Premier of 'Prince of Tides' and sat not 12 feet away from Princess Diana and Streisand... and have been a fan for a long time and I am thrilled that this new CD is so popular, for while it is not Streisand the belter - this is Streisand at 73 years of age and doing damned well.  It has a more mellow feel - probably because of her age and probably because her voice is more mature and lower in key,  and although I didn't think I was going to like the CD - and while I have never heard of half the male singers she is dueting with,  it aint half bad for an old girl... and well worth the money. 

Good on yu Babs... How about another Partners album but this time - as was originally thought - duets with Bette Midler, Byonce and other women singers... Now that would certainly get my attention.

 


This is the new poster to be found

at the front door when you walk up.


It is viewed by all those walking by and everyone can see that we are PEOPLE MOTIVATED - NOT PROFIT DRIVEN - and I get a great many comments from locals about how we offer so much for free.

 

 

 


SPIRITUALITY AND MEN



Spirituality and Men (SAM)
is a self-development group run by men for men, aiming to explore the spirit of man through informative dialogue, honest interaction and the silence of meditation.

This group meets on the first Sunday of every month at Global Co-operation House.

ALL MEN WELCOME

For further information, please contact the SAM team: sam@uk.brahmakumaris.org

 

 


Thought you might like to see these e mails to and from Hammy Hall.  

It did make me laugh.

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To Hamilton Hall :-    ' If I come to see any of your clients in the hotel do I have to pay anything?'

My Answer: :- 'I have no idea what you are talking about … . in plain English please.'

His answer :- 'In plain English: Can I come to your Hotel and have sex with your clients (I expect your clients to pay me) You can not expect me to pay for anything as I am short of money.'

My answer :-  'In plain English - FUCK OFF'

 

 




THE 'GAY AGENDA'

 




I watched a cringey youtube video about 'X MEN AND THE GAY AGENDA' through the films ' X MEN' (  CLICK HERE AND WATCH IT NOW ) and how the director had sex with young boys and raped them as part of the gay agenda to turn young boys gay, and I have never ever heard anything so absurd. WHAT THE FUCK IS A GAY AGENDA ?  I have been an out gay man for alomst 50 years. I have run various gay organisations, gay business' and even worked for 20 years in the sex industry - involved with thousands of people over the years and not once, never ever - have I ever heard of a hidden gay agenda and it seems it must come from the straights who are convinced we are about to brainwash all young boys and take over the world - or something.

I must point out here that paedophilia is predominately straight - about 90% straight - and not gay at all,  yet the straights do like to scream and holla about gay men screwing young boys and in all my years I have only ever met one man who had been convicted for having a wank with a teenage boy and he as a little odd - as in he was not the sharpest pencil in the box - or to the point, he had special needs mentally himself. 

What is this gay agenda that the straight world seems to transfixed with that we gay people know absolutely nothing about - and when you say this - all they can say is that we are lying, living in denial,  hiding the truth from the people,   when the truth is - there is no gay agenda any more than there is an agenda by gay men to take over the world and turn all men gay - or for gay men to fly to the moon and make it a gay macca or any other ludicrous ideology created out of warped minds bent on some kind of fear based rhetoric that has - in many ways - been used for centuries to damn and destroy people they fear - and why do they fear gay man - 
BECAUSE THEY FEAR THEIR OWN SEXUALITY AND BECAUSE THE CHURCH FEARS GAYS THE ABILITY WE HAVE OF INTUITION.  PERIOD.


It REALLY is about time these scared little boys grew up and turned their attention to the mass murder and mayhem their own governments are  doing in Iraq and Afghanistan and how even America is now getting into bed with their own worst enemy, the one country they claim is the creation of all evils and all terrorism ( no - not America itself although you wouldn't be far wrong ) but Iran.  Let's concentrate on truth here and not the fear based crap that so many like to throw about that is precisely that - CRAP.

Now:  If you know something about a gay agenda that I have been missing for the last 50 years - other than we demand equality and acceptance just like black, asian, aboriginal and Essex people have been demanding for decades ( just joking about those from Essex... )  then PLEASE enlighten me , but be honest, be truthful and above all, be adult and  do not approach your thoughts through your dick or through fear but through rational adult and educated input of honesty.  Anything else is just dangerous and unenlightened.

 





JB
 

 


Now that the summer is over we are allowed with the dog on the beach again and she just loves it... hates the water --- but loves the sand and running around.
Any day you fancy a glorious walk with me and my dog, usually around 1pm,  just pop on by and you are very welcome to join us and we can chat and share a laugh while we take in some beautiful scenery somewhere, not necissarily the ebach, as Bournemouth has tons of stunning places to walk a dog.

 

 



THE COMPANIES WITH THE WORST CUSTOMER SERVICE IN THE UK

 






READ MORE HERE 

 

 

  
A generation ago, schoolchildren caught fighting in the corridors, sassing a teacher or skipping class might have ended up in detention. Today, there’s a good chance they will end up in police custody.

In Texas, a student got a misdemeanor ticket for wearing too much perfume. In Wisconsin, a teen was charged with theft after sharing the chicken nuggets from a classmate’s meal—the classmate was on lunch assistance and sharing it meant the teen had violated the law, authorities said. In Florida, a student conducted a science experiment before the authorization of her teacher; when it went awry she received a felony weapons charge.

Over the past 20 years, prompted by changing police tactics and a zero-tolerance attitude toward small crimes, authorities have made more than a quarter of a billion arrests, the Federal Bureau of Investigation estimates.

Nearly one out of every three American adults are on file in the FBI’s master criminal database.

 

 


Julian Assange's dramatic arrival at the Ecuadorian embassy

The news today is about how Julian Assagne has been holled up in the embassy for 2 years at a cost of around £11,000 a day to tax payers to keep a police presence outside in case he tries to leave.

ABSOLUTELY OUTRAGOUS.

£70,000 a week from tax payers money.

Remember guys:  This man is only wanted for questioning - THAT IS ALL - to answer questions on trumped up charges of rape.  I do not see the government paying out millions of £ looking for other people who have not been proven guilty, have no warrants out for their arrest or anything else illegal - he is only wanted FOR QUESTIONING by Sweden... THAT IS ALL,   and we all know it is because America wants to get their hands on him because he has shown the world what a criminal and immoral government it has and they wish to silence him and hide their guilt.


This is absolute madness.  I fully support this man and all wistleblowers who expose government corruption and abuses and this is another government abuse - wasting so much money - OUR MONEY - and over 2 years that is over £7 MILLION - and for what ?

The USA want this man. Period. I do NOT believe the trumped up charges against this man - it is just an excuse for the US government to bully its way around the globe and shut up anyone who tells the public the evils they are getting up to. 

Disgraceful.

 

 





WATCH THIS VIDEO HERE


an amazing lyric and video about gay love










 

 

The world only beats a path to your door when you're in the bathroom.

 

When I'm finally holding all the right cards, everyone wants to play chess.

 

It was a whole lot easier to get older than it was to get wiser.

 



 

 


This is so sweet, a dog who discovers he doesn't have to swim

WATCH THIS HERE

 

 


Tony Bray died just before Christmas, and I shall miss him.  He was a good and dear friend who visited and loved Hamilton Hall and would sit in the Conservatory meeting and greeting people as they came and went and everyone loved his peaceful and charming manner.  He was 79 years of age and a real sweetheart.    He will be missed, dearly missed.
 

 


HOW TO AVOID NEGATIVE PEOPLE - READ IT HERE
 

 






JUDGE JUDY - on GAY MARRIAGE - HERE





 

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HAPPY / STOP TTIP / SECULARISM

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click above to read all about this dangerous legislation
 

 

Peter Tatchell Foundation

 

Manifesto for Secularism - Against the Religious Right

Secularism is vital for the defence of democracy, equality & human rights

London, UK - 14 October 2014


“The launch of the Manifesto for Secularism is a challenge to the global rise of the Religious Right and its menacing values, which threaten women, LGBTs, atheists, minority faiths, apostates and many others,” said human rights campaigner Peter Tatchell, Director of the Peter Tatchell Foundation. 

“Secularism - the separation of religion and the state - is a vital precondition for democracy, equality and human rights. It protects people of all faiths and none; creating a level playing field where no religion has legal privilege and no faith can abuse its influence to victimise people of different beliefs.

“Wherever religion has political power, human rights are attacked and restricted - as in Saudi Arabia and Iran. Even when religion has little or no formal political power, such as in the UK and US, the Religious Right has often sabotaged women’s reproductive rights and equality for LGBT people.

“Last weekend, 250 delegates gathered in London for the international secularism conference. Many of them were from developing countries and some of them were Muslims or ex-Muslims. Most delegates and speakers were women. Some had suffered state persecution or violent abuse in the name of religion. Examples of people murdered by theocratic states and religious fanatics were read out; followed by a minute’s silence.

“The conference went ahead despite threats made to the organisers and the conference hotel; as well as despite sustained cyber attacks which took down the conference website

“Delegates expressed strong support for the Kurdish people’s democratic, secular struggle against the clerical fascism of ISIS in Iraq and Syria, with many urging international aid to help the Kurds defend Kobane,” said Mr Tatchell, who attended and spoke at the conference and conveyed a message of support to the Kurdish solidarity rally in London on 11 October. 

The Manifesto and signatories can be accessed online: http://goo.gl/TkdFSY .The full text follows below. 


The Manifesto for Secularism: 

Our era is marked by the rise of the religious-Right – not because of a “religious revival” but rather due to the rise of far-Right political movements and states using religion for political supremacy. This rise is a direct consequence of neo-conservatism and neo-liberalism and the social policies of communalism and cultural relativism. Universalism, secularism and citizenship rights have been abandoned and segregation of societies and “communities” based on ethnicity, religion and culture have become the norm.
 
The Islamic State (formerly ISIS), the Saudi regime, Hindutva (Rashtriya Swayamsevak Sangh) in India, the Christian-Right in the US and Europe, Bodu Bala Sena in Sri Lanka, Haredim in Israel, AQMI and MUJAO in Mali, Boko Haram in Nigeria, the Taliban in Afghanistan and Pakistan to the Islamic Republic of Iran and the Islamic Salvation Front in Algeria are examples of this.
 
For many decades now, people in the Middle East, North Africa, South Asia and the Diaspora have been the first victims but also on the frontlines of resistance against the religious-Right (whether religious states, organisations and movements) and in defence of secularism and universal rights, often at great risk to their lives.
 
We call on people everywhere to stand with us to establish an international front against the religious-Right and for secularism. We demand:

  1. Complete separation of religion from the state. Secularism is a fundamental right.
  2. Separation of religion from public policy, including the educational system, health care and scientific research.
  3. Abolition of religious laws in the family, civil and criminal codes. An end to discrimination against and persecution of LGBT, religious minorities, women, freethinkers, ex-Muslims and others.
  4. Freedom of religion and atheism and freedom to criticise religions. Belief as a private affair.
  5. Equality between women and men and citizenship rights for all.

 
Signatories
 
1.   Aliyah Saleem, Secular education campaigner

2.   Amel Grami, Professor, Tunisian University of Manouba

3.   Bahram Soroush, Social and political analyst

4.   Ben Baz Aziz, Presenter at Arab Atheist broadcasting

5.   A. C. Grayling, Philosopher

6.   Caroline Fourest, French writer and editor

7.   Chris Moos, LSESU Atheist, Secularist and Humanist Society

8.   Chulani Kodikara, International Centre for Ethnic Studies, Sri Lanka

9.   Elham Manea, Yemeni writer and human rights activist

10.   Faizun Zackariya, Citizens for Justice, Sri Lanka

11.   Fariborz Pooya, Host of Bread and Roses TV

12.   Fatou Sow, International Director of Women Living Under Muslim Laws

13.   Gita Sahgal, Director of Centre for Secular Space

14.   Hamid Taqvaee, Secretary, Central Committee of the Worker-Communist Party of Iran

15.   Horia Mosadiq, Human rights and women’s rights activist from Afghanistan

16.   Imad Iddine Habib, Founder of Council of Ex-Muslims of Morocco

17.   Inna Shevchenko, Leader of FEMEN

18.   Julie Bindel, Emma Humphreys Memorial Prize and Justice for Women

19.   Kate Smurthwaite, Comedian and activist

20.   Kiran Opal, Writer, LGBTQ & human rights campaigner, Co-founder Ex-Muslims of 
        North America

21.   Lila Ghobady, Iranian writer-journalist and documentary filmmaker

22.   Magdulien Abaida, Libyan activist and President of Hakki (My Right) Organisation for
        Women Rights

23.   Marieme Helie Lucas, Algerian activist, founder of Secularism is a Woman’s Issue

24.   Maryam Namazie, Iranian spokesperson for One Law for All, Council of Ex-Muslims of 
        Britain and Fitnah

25.   Nadia El Fani, Tunisian filmmaker

26.   Nahla Mahmoud, Spokesperson of Council of Ex-Muslims of Britain

27.   Nina Sankari, Vice-President of the Atheist Coalition, Poland

28.   Nira Yuval-Davis, a founder member of Women Against Fundamentalism and the 
        International Research Network on Women in Militarized Conflict Zones

29.   Pervez Hoodbhoy, Pakistani Nuclear Physicist and Social Activist

30.   Peter Tatchell, Director of Peter Tatchell Foundation

31.   Pragna Patel, Director of Southall Black Sisters

32.   Ramin Forghani, Founder of Ex-Muslims of Scotland

33.   Rumy Hassan, Senior Lecturer at University of Sussex and author

34.   Sameena Zehra, comedian and blues singer

35.   Sanal Edamaruku, President of Rationalist International

36.   Soad Baba Aissa, Founder of the Association for Mixing, Equality and Secularism

37.   Sue Cox, Founder of Survivors Voice Europe

38.   Sultana Kamal, Lawyer, human rights activist and Executive Director of Ain o Salish 
        Kendra in Bangladesh

39.   Taslima Nasrin, Bangladeshi writer and activist

40.   Terry Sanderson, President of the National Secular Society

41.   Yasmin Rehman, Women’s rights activist


Further information: 

Peter Tatchell
Director, Peter Tatchell Foundation
0207 403 1790
Email: Peter@PeterTatchellFoundation.org 
Web: www.PeterTatchellFoundation.org

 
 


Nothing to do with Eurovision - but this song HAPPY is well worth watching
and tapping your feet to. You will recognise it. Click on the picture of Pharrell Williams below




If you put HAPPY into youtube it will come up with scores of people from all over the world with their own videos of this song and their own dancing to it,  and there are tons to choose from and many really well done. It seems millions have accepted and love this song and it seems to be the song of 2014 already.

 

 

Eighty-eight thousand deaths a year?
One in 10 people in America die from alcohol abuse each year.

 





AN EXCELLENT WEB SITE - CLICK THE SYMBOL ABOVE
 

 


US Secretary of State, John Kerry representing a country which makes Genghis Khan look like a wimp when it comes to illegal invasions, still retains the prize for jaw dropper of the decade:

"You just don't, in the 21st century, behave in 19th century fashion by invading another country on completely trumped up pretext", he pontificated on CBS' "Face the Nation." 

It really is enough to take your breath away,- the gall of this idiot.  Does he assume we are all idiots ?

 


DOES OBAMA THINK WE ARE ALL NUTS ?


President Obama spoke in Brussels on Wednesday on the Russia-Ukraine situation. At one point, in seeking to shame Russia for its actions, Mr. Obama actually went so far as to try and legitimize America's catastrophic actions in Iraq, so as not to appear hypocritical in his comments. His words:

"Moreover, Russia has pointed to America's decision to go into Iraq as an example of Western hypocrisy… But even in Iraq, America sought to work within the international system. We did not claim or annex Iraq's territory. We did not grab its resources for our own gain. Instead, we ended our war and left Iraq to its people and a fully sovereign Iraqi state that could make decisions about its own future."

Facts: America ran roughshod over the international community to get that war going. If an invasion and ten-year occupation isn't annexation, then nothing is. Companies like Halliburton/KBR absolutely grabbed Iraq's resources, because their oil was supposed to "pay for the war," and there were gas lines in Iraq for years after the invasion, because those companies sat on that oil like it was their own private piggy bank… which it was, as it turns out. And as for the state we left Iraq in, thousands upon thousands of people have been killed in the sectarian strife left in our wake. They aren't making decisions about their future. They're running for their lives.

That this president dared to attempt to paper over the horrific smash-and-grab war crime that was America's invasion of Iraq is not merely disgusting; it is dangerous in the extreme, because we are doomed to repeat what we allow ourselves to forget.

 


How to Live with No Regrets

Living a life free of regrets involves letting go. It involves letting go of the would-have, should-have, could-have mentality. Dwelling on how you could have lived differently is detrimental to your spirit. Sometimes we do the best we can with the knowledge we have at the time. Frequently the wrong choices bring us to the right places. Make the choice now to forgive yourself, as the world needs the best of you. You cannot give your best when you dwell on past hurts or perceived mistakes…

 

 


 


The following BOURNEBATERS poll is now closed. Here are the
final results:

POLL QUESTION:

HAS AGE CHANGED YOUR SEXUAL REQUIREMENTS

CHOICES AND RESULTS
- YES, 19 votes, 41.30%
- NO, 14 votes, 30.43%
- DRAMATICALLY SO FOR THE BETTER, 11 votes, 23.91%
- DRAMATICALLY SO FOR THE WORSE, 1 votes, 2.17%
- INDIFFERENCE TO SEX, 1 votes, 2.17%

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'We have all been in abusive relationships, and sometimes we were the one being abused.'

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SAD TO SEE HIM GO

You have heard me talk here about my next door neighbour - the straight man who is 6'7" - handsome and bearded and hung like a horse ( don't ask how I know - I just do... ha ha  ) and yes, he is straight and while we have a joke and a laugh together and we have seen each other naked on a few occasions back in the summer,  I do not - ever - cross those boundaries and never would. We are friends and while tongues waggle and gossip spreads,  we are friends and nothing more.

Anyway, he was a really useful friend to have right next door as he is an electrician and brilliant handy man to have around -  and as Hammy hall is always in need of some minor something being done - and he was clever on computers as well... it was a deliught :-   and he has moved to Spain to see what opportunities open up for him over there, and I send my very best wishes and hope everything goes well for him.

England can be such a hard country to live in and although we have had a very mild winter, it has been very grey and wet - as you all know - and business is down and everyone seems to be saving their money and even his electrical work seemed to dry up over here whereas in Spain it seems there is a ton of work for him within the Ex Pat community ( an English speaking electrician ... worth his weight in gold  ) and I wish him well.

Some people locally have found fault and said he won't last 3 months and my answer is to stop being so negative - stop being so half empty - and offer some support.  Good luck to him - I hope and pray he makes a huge sucess in Spain and finds himself.  

I always state that if it does go belly up and he needs to return here,  he is always welcome to stay here as my friend for free until he gets the tennants out of his flat and if that takes 6 months,  it's not a problem.  Having that lifeline is always a good thing to have available,   as if things do go wrong abroad, so many people stick with it and then drown in unhappiness and debt - being afraid to go home with their tail between their legs - rather than head held high for trying.

I wish him well and when he has that massive villa with sun terrace and huge pool,  I shall go out and take a free holiday and some R&R.

Good luck Chris, my prayers are with you.

John

 

 



 

 







So - remind me once again, what is it that these guys above are guilty of - oh I remember -

sharing the truth of what our governments are up to that they want kept hidden for fear

the people will rise up in absolute horror at what they have been up to and kick them

out of power and make a lot of changes - perhaps.  

So, it seems the government has more to hide from the people than they care to let on.  

I wonder why ?


 


TWO GEOLOGISTS WITH BP SAY FRACKING IS NOT GOOD

Had a couple of guests stay recently who worked as geologist with a ' BIG PETROLEUM' company ( hint ) and when I asked them about Fracking they both said much the same thing,   that it was not environmentally a good idea as the concept of high pressure water and chemicals being pumped underground was unknown and the damage these chemicals were / would / could do to the water table, the environment was dangerous and unknown and could cause earth quakes and it could be very dangerous to human and animal health.   There simply was no evidence to claim it is safe whereas the common sense about the dangers is clear.

This coming from professionals who work in the field  , travelling the world working in the oil and gas industry for over 50 years between them.

Interesting that two very seperate geologists both said much the same thing.

 



 

 





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STOP THE WAR - AGAIN- 'INDECT', A HIDDEN EUROPEAN PROBLEM

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STOP THE WAR MARCH - OCTOBER 4th 2014
 

Stop the bombing of Iraq - don't attack Syria
National demonstration, Saturday 4 October


Assemble 1pm,
Temple Place,
London WC2R 3BD


Parliament has voted for the third Iraq War. The last two have brought almost unimaginable suffering to the people of Iraq and have helped to create the current chaos, driving the country to the brink of break up.

They claim this is a humanitarian operation to defeat Isis. In fact Isis is backed by various middle east powers and a new aerial bombardment will not defeat it. It will however kill innocents, further fragment the country and inflame violence.

The record of the west's wars in Afghanistan, Iraq and Libya show that as well as creating misery and mayhem, western military interventions make the world a more volatile, dangerous place. 

Cameron's new war has built-in mission creep. Discussions are already underway for Britain to join the bombing of Syria, and there are growing calls for boots on the ground.

The Stop the War Coalition is asking every one of its supporters to throw themselves in to the campaign against the insanity of another war on Iraq.

Spread the word everywhere about next Saturday's demonstration:

  • Get the anti-war message onto every High Street and community. Organise petitioning, leafleting, street meetings and protests where you  live. Phone or e-mail us to be put in touch with other local anti-war activists.
  • Join the anti war-contingent tomorrow on the protests at the Tory Party conference. Meet 11am, ICC, Broad Street, Birmingham B1 2EA
  • Share the event with your Facebook contacts
  • Download and print factsheet
  • A leaflet for the demonstration will be available to download in the next few hours

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“Humanitarian Air Strikes” against Syria:


U.S. Breaks International Law, Again


 




By Alexander Clackson
Global Research, September 24, 2014
Url of this article:
http://www.globalresearch.ca/humanitarian-air-strikes-against-syria-u-s-breaks-international-law-again/5404014

 

The United States, assisted by a handful of Arab nations, conducted air strikes on Syria on 23rd September. The attacks mark a striking expansion in America’s military campaign against the Islamic State in Iraq and Syria (ISIS) and have occurred without the consent of the Syrian government. A U.S. State Department official confirmed that the Syrian government was not asked for authorisation, saying: “We did not seek the regime’s permission, we didn’t coordinate our actions with the Syrian government, and Secretary [of State John] Kerry did not send a letter to the Syrian regime.” The U.S. airstrikes are therefore a clear violation of international law, as Damascus had earlier said that any direct action by the United States within Syria would constitute an act of war and a breach of its sovereignty.

The U.S. administration lawyers have used spurious excuses, invoking Iraq’s right to self-defence and the weakness of the Assad government as twin justifications for U.S. bombing in Syria. However, the fact of the matter is: without United Nations authorisation or approval from the Syrian government, airstrikes on Syria are a violation of basic international law. The legal circumlocutions to avoid requesting a UN Security Council resolution match similar efforts to avoid requesting specific legal authority from the U.S. Congress. Fearing that U.S. politicians up for re-election in November may balk at voting for a third military attack on Iraq and being sucked into a Syrian quagmire, the White House has avoided seeking a fresh authorisation of the use of military force, preferring to rely on early authorisations against al-Qaida granted after the 11 September 2001 attacks.

The President of the Middle East Institute, Yevgeny Satanovsky, summarised succinctly the illegitimacy of the airstrikes, saying: “The fact that Washington has notified Syria’s UN envoy of air strikes against militants’ positions in the territory of Syria does not change anything. Aggression will be aggression. The UN Security Council’s resolution 2170 of August 15 envisaged creation of a basis for a collective international response to the threat from the Islamic State that has emerged in Iraq and Syria, but gave Washington no right to use force against a sovereign country.”

It is important to note that recent testimony by US intelligence and homeland security officials in Washington have acknowledged that Syrian groups such as Isis are not known to be planning any direct attacks on the U.S. Thus, in bombing Islamic State targets in Syria, the United States cannot credibly claim that it used force in self-defence or at the request of the Syrian state exercising lawful force to suppress rebellion.

The United States has a vast track record of breaking international law. It did so, for example, in March 1999, when along with its NATO allies it launched an extended bombing campaign in Serbia. In this case also, the United States could not claim it was acting in self-defence. Nor was military action authorised by the UN Security Council. In addition, the U.S. government is making sure not to mention the American invasion of Iraq in 2003, which also rested on erroneous claims of weapons of mass destruction and arguably contributed to its current instability.

As always, American allies have remained silent over this blatant refusal to follow international law. Only Russia has forcefully condemned the illegality of the airstrikes. In its statement, the Russian Foreign Ministry warned: “Any such action can be carried out only in accordance with international law. That implies not a formal, one-sided ‘notification’ of airstrikes but the presence of explicit consent from the government of Syria or a corresponding UN Security Council decision.” Describing the U.S.-led move as a bid to “achieve one’s own geopolitical goals,” the Russian Ministry said the airstrikes would only “exacerbate tensions and further destabilize the situation.”

The point about “achieving one’s own geopolitical goals” is crucial here, as it is highly likely that the U.S. administration is once again on a mission to carry out another regime chance, with President Bashar al-Assad being the main target.

As the United States and its allies continue to lecture other states on international law and respecting sovereignty, once again the preacher has become the main violator of what is being preached. It looks like the hypocritical nature of the United States knows no bounds.

Alexander Clackson is the founder of Global Political Insight, a political media and research organisation. He has a Master’s degree in International Relations. Alexander works as a political consultant and frequently contributes to think-tanks and other media outlets.

 

 

 



'a prediction' by John Bellamy


The USA wants civil unrest. Through police brutality, airport security abuse, local governmnent, corporate abuse major financial abuse through the banks & politicians,  the government is driving the innocent people to stand up for change and to take to the streets and to cause civil unrest because of the unwarranted abuse dished out to them from the authorities and this is exactly what the authorities want. They want to then spin this into terrorism and to put the constitution aside and with martial law, take control of the country and marshall all the trouble makers, - the grannies and children, the ordinary innocent men and women, who are just sick of the abuse of government, into Re Education Centres ( 800 FEMA Camps are already open and ready for business ) and this will allow the governments and Corporate / Banking America to plunder and steal - using us to police ourselves as in the Concentration Camps of WW2.  The government will then sanction mass killing and mass domination of the mind, body and soul of the population with re education.  

It has already started.
The FEMA Camps are there and open
Plans have already had 2 rehearsals by th US Government

OUR LEGAL AND MORAL RIGHTS ARE BEING ERODED BY GOVERNMENTS WHO SEE US AS GUILTY UNTIL PROVEN INNOCENT AND AS THE 99% WHO WORK AND PAY FOR THE 1%  TO LIVE IT LUXURY WHILE MILLIONS ARE UNEMPLOYED, HOMELESS AND HUNGRY.

The government doesn't give a fuck.
It's about control. power and wealth.

 
 

 

 

 




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John's comments on whistleblowers

I have huge amounts of respect for these guys and any others who reveal the truth - the awful truth, about what our governments and corporations are doing around the world and the wrong doing and illegal acts, the murder and mayhem caused by their actions, and when exposed, they turn on the whistleblower and use all sorts of spin and lies and misinformation to damn and destroy in the face of the public, the very person who is trying to expose these outragous acts that we - the public - would / are outraged about;-   when it is the government who should be hiding its head in utter and complete shame.

Good for these guys and I sincerely hope Edward Snowden gets away from the US trying to track him down and that Bradley Manning gets his action heard by the masses and gets the correct reward he deserves and not the outragous and disgusting treatment the USA has metred out to him so far.

A democracy - when talking about the United States of America, this is not a word we think of.  This nation of bullies, even of its own people, will kill, murder, destroy and plunder anyone and anything to get exactly what it wants and it thinks NOTHING AT ALL ABOUT MURDERING ITS OWN PEOPLE - INNOCENT PEOPLE and hunt those it claims are guilty of espionage even when the wrong doing is at the hands of the government and NOT the whistleblower who simply told the world what is going on behind their backs.

I ABSOLUTELY SALUTE THESE MEN & WOMEN & OTHERS LIKE THEM
My door will always be open for them.

John Bellamy

 




THESE MEN AND WOMEN ARE HEROES

 

 



Remember who 'YOU' are©


By Christopher Charles

(One of my neighbours here at Hamilton Hall)

"Have you ever though there might be more to life?
Have you ever thought of the trouble and strife?
Have you ever thought you don't need a wife?
in this system that tells YOU what is right.

Have you ever thought that black could be white
Have you ever wanted dark to be light
Have you ever wished that wrong was right
to stop the arguing and end the fight.

Well yes.....guess what..? You're not alone
cos a mate'o'mine just heard on the phone
that an awakening is happening on this planet...your home.
Its such a good reason to have a moan

So put pen to paper and air your views
make a banner and get on the news,
have regular meetings...invite your crews
for this is the awakening...you know what to do

For this has been predicted through space and time
that the people will end up...not towing the line
and without the state...we'll be just fine
from the 1% and their hidden crimes.

The banks are corrupt
The leaders out of touch
The BBC is weird
and the planets burning up.

So we vote a change...cos we think it matters
we get a different group of mad hatters
or ask for new laws to cover the doors
of the apparent cause,  to all the flaws
.
The government will not like us
on the streets with loud hailers and banners
we shout "make some new laws for these cheating scammers"
but we don't realise we are voting for laws that will hit us as well...like a row of angry hammers.

'Cos we all want change...but asking's not right
We must spread our wings if we really want flight
and not get caught up in their two party fight
Make up your own mind...don't believe the hype

You cant stop wars by bombing for peace
That's like trying to fuck for virginity at least
and when we ask for laws on hateful speech
we take away the freedom of each

So stop being offended of what people say
Its only because YOU hear it that way
Sticks and stones and come what may
Support freedom of speech everyday

So how do we make a new world for the better
I'll tell ya....I'll go through it letter for letter

Turn off your tellys and put on your wellies
'cos growing your own food is where its at.

Remove the fluoride from your diet
Its only there to keep you quiet

Get to know your neighbours and others around
and you'll soon find ...they're all quite sound.

Recognise the difference between statute and law
and the word UNDERSTAND.......it means much more.

For the acts are not real...they come from the sea
they were not meant for you and me.
It's all maritime law....it's corporate rules
and I'm sorry to say ...we have all been fooled.
There are very few laws for women and men
no harm....no loss...no damage...that's them
It's just a game...the game of life
you count yourself in when you use the dice,
and the dice is your name........
I'm watching you frown
For your names property of the Crown

BE FREE
Remember who you are."


© Hamilton Hall Promotions / Christopher Charles  CT13012013


 


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and learn all about INDECT

and watch the 6 minute video to the very end

THIS IS ABOUT YOUR FUTURE AND YOUR

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It all sounds so innocent and so ' for your benefit'

but the sad truth
is so very dangerous and different

to what they claim


It states that this could be sold to companies and corporate bodies

who have absolutely no right, as far as I am concerned,

spying on people. That is not for national security -

that is not for the protection of the masses -

that is all about control.


 





 

 



 

 

 


MARIJUANA & THE HEALTH BENEFITS - WAYSEERS MANIFESTO

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Marijuana frequently gets a bad rap. How much of it is deserved? After my earlier blog, “Should Marijuana Be Legalized?” I conducted research to find out the benefits and problems linked with marijuana use. While there are many, here are ten of the health benefits attributed to marijuana and, of course, some of the problems linked to its use:

Alzheimer’s—Marijuana may be able to slow the progression of Alzheimer’s disease, according to research by the Scripps Research Institute and published in Molecular Pharmaceutics.

AnxietyHarvard Medical School found that marijuana may have anti-anxiety effects. Of course, keep in mind that high doses may increase anxiety and paranoia.

Arthritis—Marijuana can alleviate pain and inflammation linked to arthritis.

Cancer—Research in the journal Molecular Cancer Therapeutics found that cannabidiol found in marijuana, turns off a gene called “Id-1,” which cancer cells use to spread.

Epilepsy—Marijuana has been shown in studies by Virginia Commonwealth University, to stop seizures in the school’s animal studies.

GlaucomaResearchers are working on developing new drugs based on cannabis to treat glaucoma pain after learning its effectiveness for treating the condition. Glaucoma is a condition that increases pressure inside the eyeball and can lead to vision loss.

Improves Lung Health—Research in the Journal of the American Medical Association found that marijuana can increase lung capacity, not decrease it as many people have long believed.

Multiple Sclerosis—A study published in the Canadian Medical Association Journal found that cannabinoids found in marijuana significantly reduced multiple sclerosis pain.

Nausea—Marijuana contains a minimum of 60 chemicals known as cannabinoids, of which THC is the primary one associated with its mind-altering effects.  THC has been used in the treatment of nausea, including drug- or chemotherapy-induced nausea.

Parkinson’s Disease—Research published in MedPage Today found that marijuana use eased tremors and improved fine motor skills in patients with Parkinson’s disease.

 

Problems Linked with Marijuana Use:

Addiction—that’s a fairly obvious one. Also, it can cause uncomfortable withdrawal symptoms in people who discontinue use.

Comment from JB:  Marijuana is non addictive - the tobacco you mix it with is the danger,  not the dope.

Anxiety and Paranoia—In high doses or in sensitive individuals, marijuana can cause anxiety and paranoia.

Comment from JB:  In tests - it was found that under 5% of people who smoke marijuana suffer from pananoia and this is usually because the person already had dsigns on mental health and the dope was the key. It is NOT common amongst regular smokers who have smoked for years.

Memory Impairment—As anyone who’s ever talked to someone who is high knows, memory impairment is common.

Mind-Altering Effects—This is particularly evident among people who haven’t used it before as well as many young people.

Comment from JB:  Just like booze or stress or prescription drugs - sometimes you can get an extra strong marijuana which can be a bit trippy,  just like some alcoholic substanbces which are quite legal.

 

Heart Attack—One study found an increase risk of heart attack within the first hour of smoking marijuana.


If you think severe sentencing laws are doing more harm than good,

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petition.

 


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'YOU NEED TO LOVE YOURSELF' - IS SUCH BULLSHIT


Does anyone else cringe upon hearing statements like,

“You need to love yourself before you can  land a job, a relationship, lasting inner peace - etc.” ?

 



I do, and I call it bullshit.  It might be correct in the bigger scheme of things, but here in the real world, it can be very hard and somewhat unrealistic at times.

Sure, liking yourself is important. Believing in yourself, trusting yourself to generally do right by your own best interests. Acting with integrity. Setting boundaries. Respecting yourself enough to know how you deserve to be treated and how others deserve to be treated by you in return and striving to settle for nothing but this,  is often hard. 

But the conditional “if/then” formulas in the self-help-sphere drive me absolutely bonkers. The Personal Development Police would like to have you believe that you have to high-jump over the impossible-to-reach SELF-LOVE bar in order to truly manifest what you want, when the truth is it is so much easier than you can ever imagibe - it is just that we constantly get in our own way.

I find those that give bland advice ' Oh you need to learn some self love' annoying,  unrealistic and frustrating —  it is good advice but also bad advice, no matter how well-intentioned. At least for me. You might disagree with me, and that’s fine. If you are born with unfailing radiant self-love at max capacity 24/7, I am thrilled for you! Bottle it up and sell it, baby!

But for the rest of us mere mortals, self-love is a spectrum, and there‘s a good chance it varies every day. Particularly when you are riding the roller coaster of holding down a job,   or a new relationship or quitting your job or any other massive life change that will cause stress and anxiety. 

Who really loves themselves all day every day, romancing their reflection with flowers and unicorns and affirmations in the mirror every morning?

Listen — I certainly don’t think you want to actively shoot yourself down (put-downs, berating, etc) but can we agree to a more neutral zone?

I do not believe self-love is black or white — you love yourself or you don’t.

Just do the best with what you’ve got, and admit when terrifying, thrilling, vulnerability-inducing situations bring out your shy, insecure, or worry sides. Hallelujah, you‘re alive! And you’re most likely hot on the trail of something exciting.

Try This: I Love Myself Enough

Here‘s my take: do things. Do things that scare you, and watch your confidence build.

Instead of reaching for an unshakeable self-love bar you can never hit, sit with the idea that “I love myself enough. It might not be 100%, but I love myself enough to give this a shot. To be vulnerable, and to take one small brave step each day.”

The best way you can truly love yourself (blegh, the term still gives me hives!) is to give yourself permission to do or say whatever is authentically on your mind, and to start right from where you already are.

Action is what moves you forward. Action is what builds your confidence. Action is the best teacher.

As my favorite Joan Baez quote goes, “Action is the antidote to despair.“

 

 


 

 



WAYSEERS MANIFESTO




ATTENTION: All you rule-breakers, you misfits & troublemakers, all you free-spirits & pioneers...
Everything the establishment has told you is wrong with you - is actually what's right with you...


A friend showed me this last night and I was awe struck by the power and the meaning in the words. 

Watch the video here - but most important -

LISTEN TO THE WORDS

It speaks to the heart of all those Light Workers
and those working for a higher cause -

Those who know there IS a Higher Cause
and those seekers of the TRUTH.





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WATCH IT HERE


BUT MOST IMPORTANT - LISTEN TO THE WORDS.


I found this the most powerful piece I think I have ever heard and it moved me deeply.
I urge you to listen with your eyes shut - ignore the video for the first hearing, and just throw yourself into the message

Thanks to Chris who introduced me to this


 

 

Here are the words below :-
 By Garret John LoPorto on September 22, 2010

 


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ATTENTION: All you rule-breakers, you misfits and troublemakers -

all you free spirits and pioneers - all you visionaries and non-conformists




Everything that the establishment has told you is wrong with you - is actually what's right with you.

You see things others don't. You are hardwired to change the world. Unlike 9 out of 10 people - your mind is irrepressible - and this threatens authority. You were born to be a revolutionary.

You can't stand rules because in your heart you know there's a better way.

You have strengths dangerous to the establishment - and it wants them eliminated, So your whole life you've been told your strengths were weaknesses - Now I'm telling you otherwise.

Your impulsivity is a gift - impulses are your key to the miraculous,

Your distractibility - is an artifact of your inspired creativity,

Your mood swings - reflect the natural pulse of life, they give you unstoppable energy when you're high and deep soulful insight when you're low,

Been diagnosed with a "disorder"? That's society's latest way to deny it's own illness by pointing the finger at you.

 


Your addictive personality is just a symptom of your vast underused capacity for heroic, creative expression and spiritual connection. your utter lack of repression, your wide eyed idealism, your unmitigated open mind - didn't anyone ever tell you?!

These are the traits shared by the greatest pioneers and visionaries and innovators, revolutionaries, procrastinators and drama queens, activists on the social scene, space cadets and mavericks, philosophers and derelicts, business suits flying fighter jets, football stars and sex addicts, celebrities with ADD, alcoholics who seek novelty, first responders - prophets and saints, mystics and change agents.

We are - all - the same - you know

'cuz we're all affected by the way -
We are - all - the same - you know
'cuz we're all attracted to the flame -
You know in your heart that there's a natural order to life,
something more sovereign than any man-made rules or laws could ever express

This natural order is called "the Way."

 


The Way is the eternal substrate of the cosmos. It guides the very current of time and space. The Way is known by some as the Will of God, Divine Providence, the Holy Spirit, the implicate order, the Tao, reverse-entropy, life-force, but for now we'll simply call it "the Way."

The Way is reflected in you as the source of your inspiration, the source of your passions, your wisdom, your enthusiasm, your intuition, your spiritual fire - love.

The Way takes the chaos out of the Universe and breathes life into it by reflecting divine order. The Way, when experienced by the mind, is genius, when perceived through the eyes is beauty, when felt with the senses is grace, when allowed into the heart ... is love.

Most people cannot sense the Way directly. ... But then there are the Wayseers. The keepers of the flame. Wayseers have an unexplainable knack for just knowing the Way.
They sense it in their very being. They can't tell you why or how they arrived at the right answer. They just know it in their core. They can't show their work. So don't ask. Their minds simply resonate with the Way. When the Way is present, so are they.

While others are blind to it, and society begs you to ignore it, "the Way" stirs you inside. Neurological repression blocks most people's awareness of the Way - censoring all thoughts and impulses from the unconscious is their prefrontal cortex - the gestapo of the brain -  nothing which violates its socialized programming even gets through; but your mind is different. your mind has been cracked wide open to the Way - by some miraculous genetic trait, some psychotropic chemical or maybe even by the will of your very soul, your brain's reward pathways have been hijacked - dopamine employed to overthrow the fascist dictatorship of your prefrontal cortex - now your brain is free of repression, your mind free of censorship, your awareness exposed to the turbulent seas of the unconscious - through this open doorway divine light shines into your consciousness showing you the Way. This is what makes you a Wayseer.

90% of human civilization is populated with those who's brains are blocked to the Way.  Their brains are hardwired to enforce the social programming indoctrinated since birth.
Unlike you they cannot break out of this programming, because they have not yet experienced the necessary revolution of mind. These programmed people take social institutions and rules very seriously. Society is full of games programmed to keep peoples' minds occupied so they will not revolt.

These games often cause sick fixations on peculiar protocols, power structures, taboos and domination - all subtle forms of human bondage - This distinct form of madness is not only tolerated by the masses but insisted upon. The programmed ones believe in rules so forcefully they become willing to destroy anyone who violates them.

Wayseers are the ones who call their bluff.  Since Wayseer minds are free to reject social programming, Wayseers readily see social institutions for what they are - imaginary games.  
Wayseers comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable.
Helping those who are lost in these games and refuse to help themselves is a calling of many Wayseers.

Since Wayseers are the ones who keep contact with the original source of reality - they are able to disrupt societal conventions and even governments to realign humanity with the Way.

The Wayseers are an ancient lineage. A kind of priesthood - carriers of the flame - ones "in the know."  There must always be Wayseers to reform the dizzying psychotic spinning gears of society - giant mindless hamster wheels obscuring the pure blue sky, keeping humanity shackled in a darkened cage - so Wayseers are called - to shed light on the madness of society - to continually resurrect the timeless transcendent Spirit of Truth -

Wayseers reveal this divine truth by devoting themselves to the birth of some creative or disruptive act expressed through art or philosophy, innovations to shake up industry, revolutions for democracy, coups that topple hypocrisy, movements of solidarity, changes that leave a legacy, rebellions against policy, spirit infused technology, moments of clarity, things that challenge barbarity, watersheds of sincerity, momentous drives for charity


We are - all - the same - you know

'cuz we're all affected by the way -

We are - all - the same - you know

'cuz we're all attracted to the flame -

This is your calling, Wayseer

You've found your tribe.

Welcome home.



 

 





 

 


andy pryor

Died Sunday August 19th 2012 - aged, I think 43.

and you know what,  I don't think I have a picture of him - after a computer crash a few years ago where thousands of photos were lost, and now all I have is my memory - that picture in my head.


I first met Andy when he joined a group I was runnning called 'The Gay Spiritual Group' in London, and this would be around 1996-97. He was instantly a keen member  and quickly  joined the committee to help with the running of the group.  Once a month we hosted a Social  and would get anything up to 65 members in my London home and a really good spiritual evening would be had,  relaxed and informal,  with people just talking and laughing,   and at around 9pm I would introduce a speaker for 30 minutes or so, and one of these evenings,  Andy wanted to give a talk about an  experience he had recently had.
He was really nervous and with a little encouragement from me - he stood and introduced himself and gave a wonderful, lighthearted account of a recent trip to Egypt that had changed his life,  and it was a really lovely thing to be a part of and to hear this London cockney lad - offering such a  gentle story. 

For Andy was a little Tough Ted... an east end lad you might not - at one time - have trusted  with your wallet or car keys - as he had been a cheeky little rascall when he was a teenager and in private he would tell me some of the things he had got up to in the past which while illegal,   did make you smile broadly and laugh out loud... and while you felt for the victim who had had their car stolen - or whatever - it was never meant to be malicious or evil,  it was just lads messing about,  and we would laugh.  But all that was years behind him and he donated a great deal of his time to helping others, through voluntary charity work and in his private life as well,  and he was a very thoughtful and kind, considerate and loving man.

When I moved to Hamilton Hall he would come down and help us paint and decorate - or more often - he would actually bring a friend with him who he paid to do the work for him as his disabilities through various illnesses brought about through his HIV made it difficult for him to do some things physically,  and he was thrilled every time to be able to offer something and happy to be a part of Hamilton Hall, and I was very pleased to have him part of my life.

I remember one long hot summer, maybe around 2004 - he was down for a couple of weeks with his dog - a Doberman named Scooby ( naturally )  and we would sit in the garden until late at night with candles lit all over the place and just chill out and laugh and share stories from our past - as we actually had a lot in common - and these are happy memories.  His cheecky chappy grin and laugh won him many friends here and one elderly friend fell madly in love with him;- in a really nice and sweet way - and every time I mentioned Andy to him he would smile broadly and laugh...

I knew his health was up and down over the years and I would always be inviting him down for a free stay and more often than not, he would either come down or be too busy at home,  and all of a sudden he has having problems with his bowels and had already had an operation giving him a temporary colostomy and when he visited he was so up, so cheerful and so positive, he was such an inspiration even though I think he was going through a great deal. 

During a trip to Egypt where the pain became so great he increased his pain medication, he decided upon return to just tell the doctors to take his bowel right out and give him a full colostomy as he could not live with the pain and it was obviously not getting any better,  and this was done almost immediately.  He laughed about not needing to douch any more and was so positive all through it.  But it seems things went from bad to worst and although he was always up-beat when I phoned,  he eventually moved into a hospice - he said for pain management - but within a couple of weeks his phone was switched off and he had died.  A few days later his sister called and told me the news and as soon as she said she was Andy's sister, I knew - for I had had to go through my own sisters phone book years ago after her death - phoning people and telling them - and I just knew.  Instantly my tummy did a flip,  my heart missed a beat and a tear came to my eye.  Poor Andy, I wish he'd let me know how ill he was, I would have visited him in the hospice,  but I think he didn't want a fuss - didn't want people to see him in those last days and wanted us to remember him as he was,  and he left this world peacefully and as he had lived it , on his own terms.

He also chose not to have a funeral service of any kind,  and the family were to be told - after the fact - that he had been cremated by the funeral company after it was all over.  Some would have a hard time with this - as saying your final farewell in front of a coffin is traditional and what we all expect,  but not when it causes such grief for people.  Andy hated fuss,  and so chose to leave this life as quietly as he could and leave happy memories and not grief in his wake.  

No flowers.

No hymns. 
No getting to the place on time and having to wear something black - which he would have hated and no
eulogy describing his life in nine minutes.

I was upstairs late last night with a friend and Andy and I had always shared a cigarette or two together and evenings just talking and laughing,  so I did just that with Matt who works here and we shared a few smokes,  talked about loads of things including Andy - and just had one of those evenings where we were giggling like school girls...  and all the while aware of Andy and how he would have loved to be with us one last time,  and bless him. 

Getting older for me is fun,  I see so much of other older people in myself as I come closer to my 60's - people who are older than I am and now I am catching them up,  and the one sadness is remembering all the sweet people whose lives have come to an end so much younger and so much sooner,  and it makes me sad.  I know there are always new friends to meet,  new faces to  laugh with and new evenings to share a smoke and a giggle and I give thanks for the ever changing aspect of my daily life and the wonderous way it moves through the years,  and there are times I remember back and see a face in my minds eye - of Andy - or someone else I held dear but probably never got the chance to really tell them how important they were to me,  and I try harder with my 'today friends' to let them know how much I care and love them, and as fast and as busy as my days are,  I always remember and keep their memory alive within my mind, my body and my soul and in this,  they are still with me.  Still alive and still making me smile.   For I don't ever want to forget.


Bless you Andy.

This is a piece of music he enjoyed and is to be played in the chapel.  CLICK HERE

 

 

 


EU PLAN TO BAN SEEDS / LIVING IN CARGO CONTAINERS

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John

 


EU TRYING TO BAN HOME GROWN SEEDS

The EU is trying to control the saving, swapping and sowing of seeds, by introducing the “Regulation on the Marketing of Plant Reproductive Material”. Small farmers and gardeners all over Europe could be coerced into giving up their age old practice of saving seed, and be forced to buy EU approved and patented seed each year.


If allowed to pass the “Plant Reproductive Material Law” it will be illegal to grow, reproduce, or trade any vegetable seed or tree that has not been tested and approved by the EU Plant Variety Agency. The new law basically puts the government in charge of all plants and seeds in Europe, and prevents home gardeners from growing their own plants from non-regulated seeds. If they did, they would now be considered criminals.

The Real Seed Catalogue has warned about this tyrannical law and the business interests behind it. They say that under this bad law, “It costs nearly £3000 to test & register just one single variety of seed for sale“:

This law will immediately stop the professional development of vegetable varieties for home gardeners, organic growers and small scale market farmers. Home gardeners have really different needs – for example they grow by hand, not machine, and can’t or don’t want to use such powerful chemical sprays. 

There’s no way to register the varieties suitable for home use as they don’t meet the strict criteria of the Plant Variety Agency, which is only concerned about approving the sort of seed used by industrial farmers.
 


Please contact your MEP and tell them what you think.

The next European election will be on the 22nd May 2014.
 


Comment by JB
I have written to all the MEP's that are current for my area and told them I hope they will vote against this madness as that is exactly what this is - absolute madness - and if nothing else - it is enough to make me want to leave the EU.

 

 

 

 

 


NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE -

THE MOST BIZARRE THING EVER...


Last night, a guest had not arrived at the time we had been advised (between 7 and 8pm ) and the phone number I had  for him was obviously incorrect as it would not connect, ) so as he had not phond, I eventually went to bed and forgot all about him.  
At 1.50am the door bell rang and rang and rang and it was him,  hardly apologetic at all and kept saying he got lost. I asked where he had come from - Manchester - which is such an easy journey to Bournemouth, and I bluntly asked why he had not thought to phone enroute if he was lost and he just said he was driving - and when  I mentioned he could have pulled over and rang me he just said nothing, and I was displeased.  No apology just an excuse.

So I showed him to the dorm  ( the cheapest room in the house which he had booked  and luckily there was no one else in there to disturb at that time )  and left him - and I offered no small talk or chit chat at all.

This irritated me as I then couldn't get back to sleep - but did so and 2 hours later, while asleep on top of the covers because it was a warm night, I was suddenly awoken by someone stroking my legs up to my cock- in the dark, and while it awoke me instantly - the stroker was unaware of this. I froze.  
The hands went onto my cock which was as hard as a board as I had awoken with a stiffy, and this person then started sucking on it, and my mind was racing trying to figure out who the hell this was...  So after a minute or so, he climbed up onto me and tried to insert my dick up his ass and at this point I awoke a bit more, reached for the light and told him to fuck off - but he just laid on the bed with his butt in the air expecting me to fuck him,  but as I was not about to bare back him - and as I was not about to fuck him regardless, I told him to go to bed. I got up and pushed him away from me - and yes you guessed it - it was my late night arrival -  and I was firm in telling him to bugger of.  

He reluctantly went down stairs.

I lay in bed appreciating the fantasy - because there is a fantasy to be had here, but he just was not my type at all, not even vaguely, and while he wanted to get fucked and I could have well enjoyed a late night fuck, I was not about to give him the pleasure of my big dick up his ass and I was not amused or pleased so was not about to give him fuck all.


I have no idea what he was on, what cheek, what drugs, what delusion he was harbouring under that let him think this kind of behaviour was acceptable and what others might think with him waking them in the night for sex,  especially as he had passed a PRIVATE sign on the stairs which means just as it says yet he saw fit to ignore this,  and it leaves me open mouthed.  For a start, I do not fancy orientals and I don't like tiny tiny willies ( which I briefly saw as I pushed him off ) and I most certainly do not like pushy people.
Now I appreciate that there is a part of me that knows that  had he been more my type;- had he been Hugh Jackman for instance, I might have fucked the ass of him for hours and had a great time,  and that this is double standards.  I am not adverse to a little late night nookie surprising me,  but the one thing I despise is arrogance and attitude, and this guy never once offered an apology for being late - he then assumed it was okay to creep around the hotel - probably trying every door until he found one unlocked ( mine ) and open ( so I can hear in case the alarms go off in the night ) and presumably I was not the first room he tried finding a fuck in... so not a real compliment.  And besides, his cock sucking skills - all 30 seconds of it, was useless,- not a bloody clue -  absolute crap, and if you are going to walk into someones room in the night and surprise them with your mouth around their cock, at least know how to suck cock and be decent about it and for goodness sake,  have some idea of what you are doing.

Sadly for him, he didn't.

So as I have a Late Arrival Charghe on my web site - which I have never had to use before, he was charged an extra £50 this morning for waking me at nearly 2am and when I see him later today, he WILL be told, inm no uncertain terms, what I think of his behaviour and attitude and he WILL be reprimanded and told some facts of life about decent behaviour.

 

 





 

 

 

 


KRISTIAN WANTED BY THE POLICE

Posted by: John

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John



KRISTIAN JAMES

WANTED BY THE POLICE


February 2011


IF YOU KNOW THE WHEREABOUTS OF

DAFFYD KRISTIAN JAMES





who worked at Hamilton Hall from December 2008 - January 2011

CONTACT THE POLICE BELOW


BUT NOT IF YOU JUST WANT TO
FIND OUT WHAT HE HAS DONE
 

 



Please call Police Constable 2557 TRENT -

Incident / Reference number C:11:C:8746 -

on 01202/01305 22 22 22 

or e mail her on 

Kathryn.trent@dorset.pnn.police.uk


otherwise e mail  John Bellamy on

gaymen@hamiltonhall.info

 


Since Kristian left us because the police were catching up with him, I have had loads of phone calls and e mails from those who have been burned by him over the years and it seems he is not just an opportunistic thief - who sees an opportunity and grabs it - but someone who has made a career out of stealing, lying and manipulating people and it has brought much sadness, grief and heartache to those he has conned.  Stealing money from a man who was ill with PCP and on deaths door is dreadful. Conning an old lady out of her life savings is unthinkable.  Stealing charity money while pretending to have cancer - leaves me speachless. I truly thought better of him than this and it is sad that after experiencing him,  it leaves you distrusting and questioning everyones motives - which is sad - and like everyone else before me,  I am sad for Kristian. 

Like many, I do miss Kristian, even for all his lies and cheating ways. he has a heart of gold when it suits him and he is the kindest and most thoughtful man I have met in a long time and I don't care to think that all his kindness was just a way of getting around me, gaining my trust and friendship so he could con me.  I care to think that somewhere inside this man,  is a caring soul who is just caught in a trap and cannot find an exit, even though I honestly offered to help him,  he still ran and out of fear, has never looked back.

He is such a bright, intelligent, presentable and hard working man that he could have the best job - earning a lot of money - and have friends and respect - instead of the loathing, the hatred and the bile filled words that I have read from others on e mail.  He could have it all, and all through his time here at hamilton Hall he was desperate - absolutely desperate - for friends and respect and worked so hard at befriending others - and bullshitting us about how everyone loved and adored him and made up such stories about his life and background that  always proved to be false - and it saddens me that  the people who did be friend him and he became close to -   he  ended up stealing  from them.   Find out their weak points - who had money - who had anything - he could steal - and to have absolutely no conscience - no guilt, no remorse and no feelings at all for those he has harmed,  sends a very sad and pathetic message about how this man doesn't understand the basic - the most basic - of things - LOVE. 
His family seem to have disowned him.  Friends last as long as he is in town and before he is back on the run again with the police after him and friends left in shock and horror at what he has done, and I am desperately sorry for all concerned.


I have thought many times since Kristian vanished about deleting this page on my web site,  but then I hear in my head the pain and anguish in peoples conversations with me on the phone - since Kristian vanished and since I let it be known what he had done - from others who had been stung by him,  and that alone keeps this page on this web site.   One man is so destroyed that he cannot get on with his life as he doesn't know who he can trust,  and this is a common thread from many who have been 'taken in' by Kristian and now feel very hurt and betrayed. 
Yet I cannot fathom why he has allowed this to be a way of life.  he is a wonderful man who could really be in a good well paid job,  and he has no one to blame but himself.  It is such a shame, especially as I offered him a way out but he could noit accept it as it meant telling me thr truth and - to be honest - I think he is unaware of what the truth is any more - or certainly - afraid of his own truths, and is so caught up in the Walter Mitty - that as he gets older, he will find it harder and harder.

I feel desperately sorry for everyone concerned.  Including Kristian.
He was certainly my best worker - ever.

 


Until proven guilty in a court of law - even though I have evidence and a confession from Kristians own lips that he stole from me,  all this is conjective until proven in court. It seems his rights are more protected in law than those he robbed from and his human rights are paramount above his victims.  The law is an ass and the police have done precious little in finding him as he is a low priority case - and as usual, the victim is offered little respect and I was even told off by the police women above for actually putting this on my web site - but as they are doing nothing to find him, I shall continue with this in the hope that someone - somewhere - will read this, see him, and get him facing his accusers in a court of law so these people can have closure.


The human rights of the victim seems to come second to those of the person who has abused them.  As far as I am concerned, as soon as a thief picks up a brick to throw through my window to rob my home :-  As soon as a mugger spots a victim and takes ain :- As soon as anyone puts in motion any kind of illegal act against another - THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS SHOULD COME SECOND TO THE VICTIM - WHO DID NOT ASK TO BE ROBBED, RAPED, MUGGED ETC.  and the manner - all too often,  that the legal authorities offer the victim is second rate compared to the rights of the criminal.  Too many times the victim is left with a life of fear because not only have they been abused by a bad person,  they have been abuse dby the very system that is suppose to protect them.

 

 


My Mother, Betty.

Posted by: John

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John

 



My Mother died 21st September 2011

by John Bellamy


Like a lot of you out there, I have a Mother  who moved from her warden assisted flat to a nursing care home as her mental and physical health meant she was no longer able to look after herself any longer, and there were many times when it made my heart weep. I was talked out of looking after her in my  home and while my heart desperately wanted to look after her,  my head told me I would not manage and it was not a good idea.

A while ago she had a bladder infection and she was in bed and  very distressed - staring out of unseeing eyes that did not seem to focus,  grabbing with her hands at anything and everything close - ie: the bars at the side of the hospital bed had been put up to keep her in bed as she kept sliding out and staggering up the ward - and it was quite a distressing site for many to witness - and she was chattering away - with words that did not follow any cohesive sense and while she knew my name and - kind of - that I was her son -  all sorts of other family members names came into it and I don't really think she knew me,   Her confused state was sad to witness. 



My Mother - a bright, intelligent fashion model who was one of London's top models in the 1940's  and 1950's and walked the catwalk,   also sang with many famous dance bands,  for she had a superb voice - and who raised 3 children,  was reduced to this. 

A tall proud women with a voice and an opinion of her own and no fear of speaking her mind,- a woman who was married 3 times during her life and who put up with a lot,-   A woman who had lived alone for over 20 years since her 3rd husband - my Step Father died and who lost her only daughter ( my sister ) and her baby ( my niece ) around 20 years ago when both died a few months apart ,-  A women who has always been accepting of my gay lifestyle and who loved my friends and boyfriends totally,   even if not being as accepting of my brothers wife - always being a dreadful mother-in-law and a women who all those 'mother-in-law jokes'  must have been written about,-  And a woman who was stubborn, difficult and sometimes a women who would make the angels cry because GOD she could NEVER admit fault and take responsibility and simply apologize,   and a woman who has caused much family turmoil because of her refusal - point blank refusal - to ever accept that she was ever wrong about anything - And a woman who admitted to me some years ago that she had never been in love - never really knew what love was and that - despite being married 3 times and raising a family,  had never really understood what that mysterious word 'love' - had meant - and while in her way she has loved and has been loved, she never really comprehended what it meant, and for that, I was always desperately sorry. 

Sorry that she never understood how we - her children - felt about her and sorry that she always felt the need to - somehow - try and manipulate the situation to suit herself all the time.  Sad that she  never realised we would do whatever she wanted because we loved her and not because she was being manipulative.  Sad that she always thought every situation was about her  and sad that she felt such jealously and resentment towards anyone who 'stole her limelight' - even her own grandchildren.  Sad that she resented her son being a sensational husband and father to his children and sad that she felt such resentment towards those who had something she felt she had lost out on, when the truth was - she hadn't - for she was loved - she was very cared for - and while she never understood this and while she felt alone and unloved,  other people were hurt and betrayed by her time and time again because she simply didn't get it.  She never really understood,-  and that saddens me. 

Poor Betty - my poor Mother,  and as much as we have told her over the years and as much as we have openly shown our affection and considered her in our lives - she still never got it - never realised and never allowed herself to be part of the family - preferring to isolate herself and say that she wasn't wanted all the time when the exact opposite was the truth, and we just got fed up with it. 

Towards the end, to see her bedridden and shouting for help all the time,  was not good.   I could have visited more often,  and she understood in her way.

Whatever it was she lost - and whatever it was she lacked - and for all her mistakes and all her selfish ways,  she was my Mother, I love her dearly, and no-one - NO -ONE - should be made to go through the kind of thing at the end of their lives,   and the cruelty metered out by a government and health authority  SO AGAINST EUTHANASIA beggars belief.  My Mother would not have wanted this,  and with a society where 80% of people asked agree that euthanasia is the best thing in some situations such as this,  I know she didn't suffer at the end, which came quite quickly,  and that  she can now be with my sister, her family and Jesus - in peace - which is what she spoke of.

I would tell her that it was okay - she didn't have to keep fighting and being scared - that she could go to Heaven and see Jesus and the family any time she wanted, and that she, and they, would all be young again, that she would be singing once more and surrounded by those who loved her,  and that her Father - who she never knew - would welcome her with open arms - along with Jesus.  She felt reassured with this and while her body outlived her mind -  I know she would not have wanted to live like this.  Some people need permission to 'let go' and find peace, and my Mother hung on in there and died 21st September 2011 aged 89.   She wasn't ill - she wasn't suffering anything more than being bed ridden and with dementia - her body was strong and she just seemed to 'give up' and slipped into unconsciousness and died within an hour, peacefully, and for that I thank God and the Universe.

So my Mother has now become a memory and one I shall treasure always. I shall tell stories, laugh and get angry, and always with love and affection, for while my Mother exasperated us dearly,  she was a character - and strong willed individual and she died how she lived, in her own time and in her own way.  I can hardly believe I will not see her next week or next month, when I visit and I comb her hair and paint her nails and we talk around in circles and --- but like so many people,  life goes on and we will have her cremated and sprinkle her ashes over Evening Hill - a delightful park with a stunning view over Poole and the harbour and at sunset it is simply delightful, and I often visit with friends to enjoy a fish and chip supper from a local takeaway,   and I shall remember her and be thankful that she was my Mother, who I loved dearly.


John Bellamy