size doesn't matter...
Dear John Bellamy:- I read your piece about the guy with the huge dick. How envious I am., I have the tiniest dick you have ever seen. It doesn't stop there John.
I am 6'5". Weigh 19stone - and muscular - and I mean, I am a big strong muscular man with a huge solid frame. I look like a doorman , if that makes sense , with a very threatening look and the build to match. People are often trying to ' take me on;' in a fight just because of my size and because this has been a constant since childhood, I am quite capable of looking after myself and have even served time in prison because of this.
I get picked on because of my size.
I hear people in bars talking about me, as I do part the waters when I enter and people do notice me - and while this sounds wonderful and I have made a habit out of flirting with guys and pretending all sorts of things but I know deep down that I am never going to have sex with most the people I flirt and joke around with as they assume I am built all over and that my dick matches my build, when sadly, I have the dick and balls of a 5 year old and where my balls have not even totally come down and are still tight against my groin, no hanging at all.
My dick when hard, it barely 3 inches.
Now you can see my predicament.
No one wants a giant of a man with a teeny peeny for a dick. It's not the fantasy.
Naturally, I am passive.
It caused me great emotional pain until I got myself together and considered my options in life and how things would progress for me in life with this tiny weapon - and after quite a few vile comments from people I met for sex who were just obnoxious to me about it and where, I was so angry with one it ended up with me serving 30 days for a fight ( I thumped the ignorant little turd and broke his jaw ) I sat myself down and actually had a chat with my dick. Can you imagine that, sitting talking to my dick... ???
We discussed the fact that while I am a very attractive and desirable man - when naked - everyone acts so surprised and shocked, some laughed and some took pity and THANKYOU I do not need your fucking pity or laughter THANKYOU VERY MUCH - and I came to the realization that my sex life was to be passive and where I was very choosy who I actually had sex with and that if ANYONE gave me grief about my dick I would grab them by their balls - hard - and say ' You got a fucking problem mate '- and it kinda works.
I don't need people talking about my dick behind my back.
I don't need people feeling sorry for me.
Luckily I have really highly paid job and have an amazing lifestyle many envy so tend to use rent boys for sex and it works and it works very well. BUT: I do know others with dicks like mine who have turned angry and bitter at anyone who is hung, and their anger has clouded their whole world view and anyone and everyone - according to them - is against them in all ways when the truth is they have turned so inward resenting, that they hate the world and all because of their small dick. Many ruin good relationships that really could work, but for their own attitude towards their own dick is so negative, no one else is allowed not to care - because THEY worry and care enough for the whole world and NOTHING can get them out of their anger.
Big dicks are my fantasy just like most gay men and let's be honest, despite what some claim, we are all size queens and like a decent dick to play with and in my case, I have everything else but the dick and have made peace with that and it works just fine with me, so if you have a problem about small dicks, it really is your problem.
I was so pleased to receive Jacob's response to last weeks e mail from the super hung guy and to hear another side of what it must be like. We all know how vile many on the gay scene can be and how cruel. Good to see someone who has risen above these assholes and found peace within.
John: I have a small dick. My tummy hangs over and I have not actually seen my dick in some decades. Was always aware it was small and got married and managed to have some children but as soon as that was done my wife divorced me stating sexuality with me was a problem for her and this left me devastated. It crushed me. I cannot help having a small dick - or as she called it - Pencil Dick. I went to therapy. I went to self help groups, I went to all sorts of people and even talked to prostitutes and it was the sex workers were the most helpful and wise. These street walkers and agency Madams were so thoughtful and caring - and it seems the sex workers were the only ones not laughing or poking fun and it was through them that I managed to get over it all and see my way clear as a human being first and a dick second. Sex workers really do have the ability to help cure many of societies problems.
I think I was probably always interested in men and only started playing in my 50's and have enjoyed a good sex life since discovering my arse likes dick up it ( I never thought I would write that to anyone ) and am quite happy with my small dick as no one expects anything from me ... and that is a big problem in sex -= expectations.